vi-vi-an

2011-02-17T23:11:00.000+08:00

That choice is the glue that will hold you together. Even when the adrenaline rush is gone and the music fades, the love will live on.

It is not important to find out who's fault it is. It is important for us to find a way to overcome this.

I miss you terribly.

2011-02-16T23:32:00.002+08:00

Screwed up this sem.

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"It's not that I don't want to console you or make you feel betterbut I've felt so disillusioned with you lately. "

what do you mean by that?

Unbelievable?
I can't study much alr. Gonna wake up early tmrw to do project work/study.
Have been falling asleep on the sofa lately. Gah. Pimples on my forehead everywhere.

2011-02-11T18:53:00.005+08:00

You can't believe I took so long to decide.

I can't believe I made that decision, cause that's not even what I want.

I made that decision cause I dont wanna be the one deciding for you.

I dont want to be controlling, but you left me with no choice.

I dont want you to walk me home cause i'm on the verge of crying.

I dont want to let you know cause I know how you'll probably react.

My heart can't take it.

I rather I walk home alone.

Stupid psychology quiz forever so accurate whenever i take one sia.

Your Existing Situation

Feels her position is threatened or not properly recognized by others and feels defensive. Determined to go after her goals despite her fear of bringing conflict upon himself.

Your Stress Sources

"Sensitive, gentle, and emotional; having a strong need to find some sort of magical harmony and beauty. Artistic in nature, she longs to find a partner who finds these things important as well; however, having trouble finding such a perfect person. Keeps a close eye on her emotional and how much of herself is given to others. she must always know where she stands with others and longs to be regarded with respect. her taste are geared to the artistically beautiful and refined, but she can be harsh and critical of works of art and creativity. Yearns to make friends with those who can help build her intelligence and artistic ability."

Your Restrained Characteristics

"Feels she is getting less than she deserves for all her hard work; however, she makes no effort to change things and tries to make the best of the situation."

"Seeking to broaden her horizons and believes her hopes and dreams are realistic. Worries she may not be able to do the things she wants and needs to escape to a peaceful, quiet environment in order to restore her confidence."

Conceited and is easily insulted. Holds back emotionally but is able to find satisfaction through sexual activity.

Your Desired Objective

Is in need of immediate rest and relaxation. Longs for peace and a sense they are understood. Feels she has been treated unfairly which makes her angry. Cannot stand to stay in an environment in which she is treated unfairly and with no consideration for her feelings.

Your Actual Problem

"Tends to be too trusting, so she must protect herself from this or she runs the risk of being misunderstood or used by others. Searching for a relationship which provides a safe and understanding environment, one where she knows exactly where she stands with her partner at all times."

Your Actual Problem #2

"Wants to be valued and respected, seeks a close and peaceful relationship with a shared respect of each other."

freaky quiz

2011-01-17T23:44:00.003+08:00

The quiz that tongy introduced to me is really 'freaky', like what she's said.

It's so zhun leh. whenever i do it when i have different emotions, the results really turned out like how my emotions were at that time.

Your Existing Situation

Feeling dissatisfied in her current situation and has a strong desire to escape or find an immediate solution.

Your Stress Sources

"Feels unappreciated and in an unpleasant position. Needs personal recognition and the respect of others, since she has not been about to find partners who value the same things she does. she holds back her emotions and is unable to give fully of himself, but lasting isolation makes her want to change those ways and surrender to her deep urges. Giving in to her natural instincts and urges is a sign of weakness, so feeling this way makes her weak and irritable. Fighting these urges makes her feel stronger, as if she can take on anything that comes her way. Longs to be valued as an important associate and admired for her personal qualities."

Your Restrained Characteristics

Current events leave her feeling forced into compromise in order to avoid being cut off from affection or future cooperation.

Feels trapped in a helpless situation and is desperately seeking relief. she is able to find pleasure and happiness in sexual activity.

"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic, but needs reassurance from others. Has strict standards when looking for a partner and wants guarantees that she will not be disappointed or lose."

"Willing to become emotionally involved because she feels isolated and alone. she tries to avoid conflict and disagreements, but her arrogance leads her to quickly take offense."

Your Desired Objective

"Needs peaceful surroundings. Looking for relief from stress, conflict, and arguments. Tries to control potentially harmful situations and arguments by treading lightly. Is sensitive, emotional, and has an eye for detail."

Your Actual Problem

Lack of energy leaves her unnoticed to pursue further activities or demands placed on her. she feels powerless which leaves her agitated and depressed. Tries to escape from her struggles by searching for peaceful and restful conditions in which to relax and recover in an atmosphere full of security.

Your Actual Problem #2

"Wants to be valued and respected, seeks a close and peaceful relationship with a shared respect of each other."

The coolest free personality test ever.

Distracted

2011-01-17T00:11:00.004+08:00

Because I cant help but to be distracted. I cant be not distracted at all, I cant help it. Taking me longer to do my work cause cant focus.

Celebrated sis' bday @ suntec.

Whole family said i'm sweet cause I bought smth sweet. ^^v

I feel like this month is my season of giving instead, since december's usually the month that I spend alot and give stuff to many people. Last december I gave christmas pressie only to 2ppl. -_- But turns out this month's the month that I'm feeling more generous (I'm always one though :p) and bought stuff for ppl that they reminded me of. Even if it's a small thing it means a lot too right.

Another New Year Resolution:

Not to be late for everything!

Vivi you can do it. Please try your best.

I know I did improve compared to the last 2years.

But I can do better.

I used to dont love myself at all, but now I know that I've love myself more.

I have no rights to love others if I dont even love myself. Am I not wrong to say that?

2011-01-15T02:11:00.001+08:00

Just happen to come across this song. The song isnt that nice. It's not really catchy leh, but i think it's because of the lyrics. I kinda like part of the lyrics.

Haha, this is the kind of songs pri sch girls would like one sia. This would probably be my fav song if i'm still 10 years old. xD She reminds me of avril lavigne though.

How I wish things were this cool.

Actually I've been staring at my post thinking of what else i can blog about.

My back hurts.

I'm tired.

I really care.

I'm so easily influenced and easily affected.

Envy much.

I really care.

Sometimes I wish people can know me better.

I wanna it to last forever.

I dont know how to express myself.

Love hurts whether it is right or wrong.

okay off to bed now.

Chemical romance

2011-01-08T12:50:00.012+08:00

Taken from 2Jan, 2011, TheSundayTimes, in the Life! section.

Thought this article was quite interesting, so I decided to share. ;)

Jan 2, 2011
Chemical romance
Locking lips smacks of hormones at play and can help you decide if someone is a suitable partner

Getting within nose range of someone allows you to detect information about a person's health. -- PHOTO: XINHUA

Click to see the full article. :)

Apparently soulmate shouldnt be this easy to come by

2011-01-08T11:09:00.006+08:00

i dont understand why my eyebags are forever swollen. :\

Met tongy for brunch on thursday and to keep each other updated about our lives. ;)

Idk why, i can share everything and anything with her (even the most embarrassing and awkward situation that happened to me), but not with huimin and vania.

Reminded me of wanxin though, where I used to share all my most embarrassing moments of my life back in secondary school. I just feel comfortable talking to them, even though wanxin would roll on the floor and laugh like siao when i told her my embarrassing situations, compared to huimin and vania, which i dont feel quite comfortable when they laugh, and even if they didnt laugh.

But i'm glad I finally found someone whom I can share anything and everything with.

It's really good to have such a close friend to share about each other's lives.

I think i've learnt to become more caring and concerned to more people in my lives, even if they're just acquaintances.

Met vania later in the evening to pei her to shop for her CNY clothes at city plaza.

YES, city plaza. xD

I always have the impression that city plaza is a -_- place to shop, but apparently it isnt so.

A place where I used to think that it's for maids and ahmas to hang around where they sell o-biang clothes, turns out to be better than fareast and bugis street imo. Sis agreed to go shopping with me at city plaza the next time. That'll be her first time and my second time going there to shop haha. Shall drag tongy (YES YOU :p) to go there during the semester break too kekeke. Some clothes are quite cheap lah, but there're some slightly expensive clothes too. There's not much jumper and romper though. Vania was searching high and low for it but could only find one nice romper.

Took picture with her at the bus stop usng my MACBOOK! -.- She asked me to bring my macbook to meet her so that we can take pictures. ._. So heavy leh, but nvm because she asked (and i love her)! :) Ask and it shall be given to you. :p

we really took those pictures at the bus stop leh. Ppl were looking at us, but vania dont really care, so i didnt care much abt it too. :p

Met chan mali chan for dinner and went to his house. Watch 'Date Night' in his macbook and didnt know what to do after that. We always dont know what to do whenever we meet sia. And he was suppose to think of what to do lor. Haiyoeh. I still love him for who he is though. x)

Nevertheless, time still past really fast even when we were doing nth/stoning. :\

What Is A Soulmate?

Many theories exist as to what is a soulmate. The original roots of the concept go back to a belief in reincarnation. A soulmate is someone that you have encountered in many different life times and have loved many times. That is why the first time you meet them in this lifetime you feel as if you have known them forever before you even knew their name. There is a mystical deja vue energy right from the start. Can you have more then one soulmate during your lifetime? Originally, the answer was no. As the definition of the word soulmate has changed, so has that answer. People’s religious and spiritual beliefs deeply affects how they view the concept of soulmates.

It was originally believed that soulmates are created when the creator takes a soul and splits it into two, as it is caste into human form. Each half is supposed to learn the life lessons at their own pace. When the two halves sometimes cross paths during various lifetimes, they have a cosmic powerful bond because they really are of the same soul. They complete each other. They are often very much alike, and the intensity of the connection is too much for a mere human with emotions and issues to handle, so they painfully end up parting ways. When they both finish their lessons, they are both reunited in heaven and come together as a beautiful representation of love and unity. This is also known as your twin flame. Only one person is the other half of your soul.

Loving a soulmate or twin flame is often difficult because we are not usually able to love and accept ourselves, so why would we be able to love the other half of our own soul?

Today, people use the word soulmate to mean anyone that you fall madly in love with and feel the heavens have blessed your relationship. There are people claiming that more and more soulmates are being brought together during this time in history so that they can unite their forces to bring healing and loving energy back to this planet. Since nobody can prove or disprove any of this, who is to say that all of the great loves in your life, were not all soulmates. It used to mean a very rare and cosmic match that shares your same soul.

All love is sacred and holy no matter what you believe about reincarnation and soulmates. We are better off not trying to force it into any one definition or to create a bunch of dogmatic rules around who does or does not get to call their beloved by the name of soulmate.

i'm counting on God im counting on God

2011-01-05T21:56:00.003+08:00

Went to do manicure with BFF huimin today. ;)

Skyped with vania just now and still skyping now. ^^

So fun. Never thought it would be so fun skyping. Partly why i didnt use my skype acc until vania wanna skype with me. awesommeeeeee. :D

We agreed that we would start studying at 11pm while on skype, but here i am, still blogging. -.-

I would probably start doing after blogging. ;)

A deliveryman delivered ice-blended coffee and cinnamon roll from starbucks to my house this afternoon. Kinda surprised when my maid took it out when I reached home. Totally made my day. My maid was laughing at me when she saw me grinning to myself. xD It would be better if I could see that deliveryman though. :)

HAPPY 3RD MONTHSARY. <3

Sheeeeeeeeeeesh.

2011-01-04T22:50:00.004+08:00

Certain words do trigger my emotions.
Congratulation, you just hit the trigger button.

Srsly, sometimes I really think I have mental problem.

I have my first heartache when ___________.
I dont think i've ever felt it before in my life.
It happens frequently after that, even for the slightest matter.
Even when you said the 3 words i get that numb feeling in my heart too.
And i dont really know if you get that heartache feeling like i do or not.
Why do I have it GAH.

Monday bluez

2011-01-03T19:28:00.006+08:00

Goodbye 2010. It's 2011 alr. Time flies so quickly.
And before i knew it'll be 2012.

New year resolution.. What's mine? :\

My ministry i/c made one for me, that is not to be late to serve from this week on. :x

I think one of my NY resolution, which it's the most impt one imo, will be spending quality time with close friends and love ones.
I know i've been such a lousy friend to everyone. Yeah, to everyone, including huimin and vania, though they're my closest friends.
I didnt try to keep in contact with them, despite that they kept smsing and msning me. I feel so bad. I mean, I do think of them constantly, and I miss them all the time, but I dont put it into action. I dont try to sms/call them, or even try to find time to meet up with them. It feels like I'm waiting for them to contact me. They're always the one who always initiate to meet up. It's until recently that i've tried to keep in contacts with quite a handful of my close and good friends. I'm afraid I might lose them.

Honestly speaking, sometimes i didnt contact them cause i'm lazy to keep in contact with them. i feel so exhausted by all the things that I'v got to do everyday. I even lost my interest to draw and write my diary. And I really feel so lousy about myself.
Sometimes when I think of what I've done as a friend, a close friend, a BFF, I realise I havent done much. Srsly, I always wonder how's their life and whether they're doing alright etc, but i dont make any effort to contact them when they're just an sms/a phone call away. Instead, I just continue to lie on my bed and have these questions unanswered. I didnt put much effort.

But that doesnt mean I dont love them. I still love them alot. I really really love and miss them. Havent meet huimin for sooo long, i feel really sad. Extremely sad. Our schedules clash and we can't find a date to meet up. :\ It's like I didnt cherish my close and good friends around me.

All of a sudden i feel so empty inside.

But no matter what, they will always be my closest friends forever and ever.
Huimin will always be my BFF, Vania will always be my closest meimei, no matter what, even if they start to dislike me and stop trying to keep in contact with me because i'm still such a lousy friend.

I'm really not good at keeping in contact with them. Sometimes I dont even try to tell them about my life and open up to them. It's kinda like my weakness. I dont know how on earth am i to explain to them if they were to ask, i'll probably just cry.

I must have better time management.

God please help me.

I feel so empty inside. :'(
Please let me cry my heart out. Im tired of not being able to cry despite trying to force out tears from my eyes.
All of a sudden i feel so frustrated, not of everyone, but of myself. I think I've screwed up my own life in 2010.
I really feel so bad. I'm not a good person, I havent been good to everyone.
If only I can manage my time well. And here in 2011, I know I will.

I must believe 2011 will be a blessed and better year for me.
Greater things are yet to come, vivi. :)
2011 will be the best year yet for you, for me, and everyone else.

Friends that I will always rmb: Those in the NPGG, BFF huimin, vania meimei, wanxin, gabrielle, yingtian, dexy, tongy, esther, belinda. I love all of you. Sorry for being such a lousy friend.

i'm a rocketeer ;)

2010-12-29T01:16:00.005+08:00

Eeek. I cant sleep. Im still feeling full from my ministry appreciation dinner @ Scape Xin Wang Cafe. :\

Oh well, shall watch HowIMetYourMother then. Havent watch it for the whole day. And I shall watch just an episode. ;)

I keep wanting to watch Rapunzel but the tickets are always sold out man! :\ And almost everyone I know has watched it! >:( Asked bro just now, but he wasnt free tmrw(as in later). haiya, worse come to worse, i'll watch it myself. I still wanna watch it badly sia. :'<

Haha, my mum bought 2pairs of colour contact lens for herself, but finds it super uncomfortable when she puts on, so she gave everything to me. ^^ yay i have new pair of contact lens to wear. i shall keep it for CNY. :>

P.S NPGG ppl ROCKSZSZSZSZ! I know it is safe to say that we'll stay in contact for many many many many many many years! :') Can't waiting for the next gathering! I'm actually aready excited for it! xD

My heart will sing how great is our God

2010-12-28T12:37:00.007+08:00

Since the songs in my ipod touch cannot be transferred to my macbook, i kinda like downloaded all the songs again. So troublesome. Hmpfhfhfhfhfhfh.

I was downloading some christian songs.

Really love this song though. It's been a long time since i've listened to this song. I still remember that we used to sing this song back in secondary school. Really missed chapel session. :\

Here it is. It's 'How Great is Our God' by Chris Tomlim. :)

Another two of my fav: PlanetShakers - So in love with you & Lincoln Brewster - Today is the day. I added this song in my mixpod playlist at the side of my blog. ;) Xiaomei has these in her ipod and i asked her to transfer to my ipod touch for me. ^^ And that was like last year. Time really fliesss.

So many nice songs that I havent listened for a looooooong loooooong time actually! No wonder my bro says he likes all the songs in my ipod touch. Those in my ipod are all the 'old' nice songs that we used to sing back in primary and secondary school.

Ohoh, and cool or what. I realise the radio in itunes have christian fm. And i'm currently listening to The Healing Stream. itunes totally rocks. (Y)

dont say i love you

2010-12-24T14:29:00.001+08:00

And as expected, i tend to be more lazy to blog during the holiday sia. lol. i dont know why i always wanna blog when i'm studying/doing school work leh. tsk.

Expect myself to blog less oftem from now alr.

There's candlelight service in church last sun btw! ♥♥♥

Totally love candlelight service. why is it only once per year sia. at least have it twice a year what, like during christmas week too. :\

Btw, I'm glad that I have few close friends in secondary school who are in the same church as well. Crystal and huiqing smsed me before service and we met to chat for awhile. xD They're really really nice ppl. Really glad that I'm still in contact with them! :) I missed the annual NPGG outing with them this year, and i really hope i wont missed it next year!

Went to somerset for fellowship after service. And there's fleeeea market @ scape! haiya, but abit boring leh. didnt see anything that i like. anyhow, i bought 3pairs of pretty pretty earrings at cineleisure which cost only 90cents per pair! haha so happy! it's cheaper than almost everything in the flea market sia. ^^

We had an old E462s reunion @ somerset/orchard as well. Old E462s as in the old members that used to be in E462 in the past. xD We miss them so much. Glad we had that reunion though it's only like 3-4 of them turned up. They're really a cool bunch of ppl leh. Had so much laughter with them around, which i dont think we will be able hear it in the current E462. I dont mean that there's not much laughter in the current E462s lah, but it just feels different. Took sooooo many pictures with Kim's camera. I realised I used to love posing and smiling for the camera ALOTTTT but now, whenever someone asked me to pose, i'll feel damn paiseh to pose or smile sia. If i were to smile it'll most likely not look natural at all. Why is it so ah. I really wonder. :\

Celebrated our dearest Esther's bday too! :)

Bought her the ~~candyskull~~ skullcandy headphone that she wanted. xD

Dont know if she was really surprised or not! LOL.

Cant really rmb what we did after that though.

Summary of what i did for the past few days:

Mon didnt do anything much, just towards evening i've invited chan to come over to play wii tgt with bro and sis' bf. Tue.. what did i do on tue? o.o Wed i went for my braces appointment (yes green and red braces yayyy!) and met vania at orchard to shop & took pictures. Went to trimmed my hair too. Cant tell that i've go a haircut btw, and it cost $48 after discount. siao one.

And yesterday.. Oh yes i rmb. Met chan to go to botanical garden for 'photoshoot' by kim the photographer. Kinda fun i would say. I enjoyed the photoshoot. At first i thought it would be a lil awkward, but i was wrong. xD Met wanxin and huiqing for late lunch at ikea. I missed ikea food! And i wanna go there for lunch/dinner again soon! >:)

Andandand, ahahha here comes Christmas service. Cant wait to watch the drama. Really enjoyed every Christmas and Good Friday's drama. I know its gonna be another funny drama again. Thats what i heard too. xD Tmrw im gonna serve in children church as well. YEEHAHAHA. :D

Invited gaby to come my house for christmas celebration tonight and tgt with my cousins for tmrw night too. Glad that she's excited, cause i am excited too! so fun to hang out with her. (Y) Next time if can i also will go her house stay over. Really very glad to have a few close friends. :')

Christmas Christmas!

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS MY TWOFRONTTEETH, MY TWOFRONT TEETH. :B

GAH.

2010-12-16T22:41:00.009+08:00

I dont know where can i make myself feel better. I'm reallyy madddddd nowwww. Because

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SOMEONE IS BEING EXTREMELY ANNOYING TODAY. :@

And I dont know what else I can say here.

Dont talk then dont talk lor. HMPH.

We're sure a happy nation of grumblers.

2010-12-16T08:49:00.019+08:00

There's a particular type of person I cannot tolerate. I just cant stand people who grumble about how sucky their life is, and how God is unfair to them and why can't they have normal life like anyone else and how they would wanna end their life and stuff. It's okay if they said it once or maybe twice (sometimes life can be really depressing and grumbling about it once in a long while is kinda normal, except for the ending life part), but all the time is really intolerable leh.

They claimed that they have the lousiest life ever and anyone else wouldnt have a life that can be lousier than them, but how do they know they have the worst life in the whole wide world? Their views are totally subjective lah. Everyone else in the world have their own problems in life FOR SURE. Those who didnt complain/grumble doesnt mean they dont have problems in their life, but they chose to look on the brighter side of life. They chose to stay positive even though they have a lousier life than those who complained about them having the lousiest life in the world.

Okay, so now i'm also complaining about these people. -.-

Well, actually i dont mean to grumble about them. All that I just wanna say is that I can't stand myself too.

Yes, I'm one of these people, I really find myself so annoying and irritating.

To be precise, I USED TO be like this lah. I'm better now.

When I look at these people, they remind me of myself in the past, where I used to wanting to end my life and doing all sorts of dramatic stuff like cutting wrist, trying to hang myself, jumping down from the building (jumping from the 4th-storey btw -.-) and banging my head against the wall. I ran away from home, had my parents to search for me and get them worried the whole night when i'm staying at my friend's house till late midnight, not wanting to go home. But somehow my parents always managed to track down my friends' contacts and contact the friend whose house i was staying, and I always get home by the next morning.

LOL. Come to think of it, I find it really funny leh. I think I was really immature then. I remembered being super rebellious too. I cant believe I was soooo mad in the past. I really thank God that I've changed and moved on.

Since I used to be like one of those abnormally negative-thinking and dramatic people, I feel that I have no rights to find them intolerable. I wanna help them and tried helping them and gives them ideas on how to deal with it by looking on the brighter side of life, but their mindset is really FIXED that they refused to do so(they said that they've tried it but it didnt work). And aha, once again i'm not trying to criticize them, because I WAS ONCE LIKE THIS TOO, and now I'm really embarassed by myself that I was once like that. I used to call this particular friend/classmate after school everyday and complained about my life and how i wanna end my life. I cant believe she actually never fails to answer my call everytime i called her and tolerated me for hours through the phone daily sia. (Y)

It seems that I need to be more like her. I wanna be more like her, in fact. I wanna help them.

And now you're my habit.

2010-12-14T09:35:00.019+08:00

And yesterday i've found out that development psych test was on WED instead of FRI. ._.

And that's tmrw! And thank God I've found out ytd. If I didn't ask, then I would have been doing lesson plan now. Tell me I cant be more careless than that.

I'll probably start studying again at 10am, which is in another 5minutes' time. :\

Holiday please come sooon. But that means i got to complete my assignments faster. Now I couldnt decide if I want the holiday to come sooner or not. :(

But TCH, as if the time will go faster or slower as I want it to be.

Gonna start studying soon. soonsoonsoon.

I ~~dis~~like studying.

It's all in the mind, you know.

I used to think that you're the right person at the right place,

but at the wrong time.

I always have that mindset and didn't wanna change it,

but now you're my habit, my good good habit.

And aren't I'm glad.

2010-12-13T09:09:00.005+08:00

EDU PYSCH TEST TODAY. :\

Havent finish studying my edu psych. I cant study too long, so I'm taking a short break n ow.

GAHHHH I havent complete my lesson plan assignment too. I'm kinda stuck when I was doing it halfway.. :\ Gonna ask my teacher for help. I wanna complete my assignment by tmrw man. At most wed.

Didnt study much ytd, i cant stay awake for the whole day ytd sia. I fell asleep for more than 5times I'm veeeeeeeery sure. It's only till 12am++ that i start to feel less sleepy and finally able to focus on studying. o.o

Slept at 3am+ after that. Glad that I was able to study quite a bit before I slept last night.

And I cant wait for mid-sem test to end mannnnnn! Cant wait for holidays to come! :\

OKAYYY. Off to study now! JIAYOU VIVI, mid-sem test will soon be over. ;)

P.S I really ♥ this particular msg. Probably my favourite msg of the year. xD

"Eh can call me? You don't need to talk. I find it easier to sleep with you on the phone."

2010-12-11T21:01:00.003+08:00

Studied with chan in from morning till around 4pm++ at changi airport. Okay i didnt really study, i was doing my lesson plan assignment. Doing that assignment is so frustrating. Do until so long still havent finish. I find it so hard to think of the activities for the lesson plan sia. Sososososo frustrating. My laptop went flat after that, it died at a good timing anw, or not i would have explode if i continue doing the assignment. So I studied after that. for like around 45min only. :\

Stupid chan so annoying, kept tickling me while studying. That crazy boy claimed that it keeps him motivated to study. -.- I would have studied more if he's not so siao today. :p Glad I met him to study together though. x)

Went to serve after that! Totally enjoyed serving today. Haiya, i enjoyed serving every sat actually. xD Glad I went to serve too. Never fail to feel less stressed and vexed after serving. It feels like burden and worries are lifted off my shoulders after serving every Sat. Hopefully I'm able to focus better when I study now.

But I'll probably start worrying and panicking again because I still have annoying assignments to complete. :\

2010-12-11T08:43:00.004+08:00

I dont understand why I get so nervous so easily, though I may not show it. In school, with friends, and everywhere else where i need to communicate with many people. I realised I always get mental block almost all the time, even when i'm talking to friends. Okay, I shall convinced myself that it's ALL IN THE MIND, which I think it's kinda true though. Everytime I got to present in class, I never fail to screw it all up. And I believed I blushed everytime I go up to present, cause i can feel blood gushing up to my face each time I present/give speech. And although I ended up looking clumsy and made everyone laughed, it doesnt ease me from feeling less nervous. I feel more embarrassed in fact, which in turn gave me mental block.

Honestly speaking, I always feel that people will look down on me after I present because I presented lousily, and I think that's why I feel so lousy and embarrassed of myself everytime I present/gave speech, or speak up, thus feeling less confidence each time.

Had OMEP storytelling meeting with the other OMEP members who signed up for it and practiced storytelling. It's really challenging to me mann, I cant imagine reading in front of so many kids in the library. :\ And i'm also gonna help out in MYMCA. Currently serving in children church every sat somemore. I'll probably will break down and cry lor, or i'll probably have heart attack that i got to do all these so often, but i'm still gonna try.

I feel so stressed. Tsk I always get so stressed so easily leh.

But it's probably all in the mind, again.

2010-12-10T10:09:00.009+08:00

LESSON PLAN IS SO DAMN DIFFICULT TO DOOOOOO. :\
okay lah, it's not really hard to do, but
it's so COMPLICATING LEHHHH, and there's
SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH TO DO!

Blame it on me, who keeps thinkng that there's more than enough time to complete.
My time management is really lousy ttm. Forever one. :\
Hopefully i'm able to complete it by sunday.

Nono, I WILL complete by sunday LAH.

IT'S ALL IN THE MIND. :)

JIA YOU VIVI.

2010-12-08T21:16:00.002+08:00

I was studying like mad for OTCM test when I reached home at 1pm just now. Sigh I dont wanna flunk any test anymore ever since I've sat for that annoying EYL&L test on monday. I tried to squeeze everything I can into my little brain within that 4hours i have to study just now man. :( I laid hand on the paper before i start doing. x) And thank God that I remembered everything when I was doing the test. There's no MCQ at all sia, I didnt know but i managed to answer every qn yayyyy! :) On the way to school saw chan at the bridge, have so much to talk to him about but i cant cause my test was about to start then. :\ and I didnt know kaixuan took the same cds LOL. He was sitting in front of me during the test lah. xD

And so, i'm left with 2 more term tests to go. And i have so many projects and assignments to do. Hopefully I can finish most of them by this week, though it's kinda like impossible. :\

2010-12-08T08:36:00.002+08:00

Lesson plan for Environmental Awareness and Numeracy due next fri!

And I havent even started yet. I dont really know how to do. GAH. bad student, lousy student. :\

Can't focus ytd, i tried to do my lesson plans/study but i ended up fb-ing, tweeting, checkingemails and doing everything else except for studying. When mama asked me to go for a golf with her while sis asked me to go shopping tgt i frowned at them and told them i wanna study. -.-

I tried to wake up at 6am today to study a lil, but i ended up waking up at 7.45am. :\

I'm gonna find ways to motivate myself to study man.

Wanted to study with stupid boy, but i think he can study better alone.

Haiya.

I know I'm gonna flunk my L&L alr, and I dont wanna flunk my other tests as well.

UGHHHHHHHHHH!

THAT'S IT. I'm gonna tell myself I can do it and I wont fail lah.

AH, and I'll probably be late for school. -.- it's 8.50am now!

2010-12-07T17:54:00.005+08:00

My bro stinks.

My bro's bag stinks.

My bro's clothes REALLY REALLY STINKS!

HE'S BACK FROM CAMP!!! D:

The moment i got out of bathroom he was standing right in front of me. And he really really stinks. *puke* Okay lah, maybe i exaggerated a lil. But i didnt exaggerate about his clothes and his bag lah. It's so stinky it fills the whole living room with this very unpleasant smell. It smells probably 10 times stronger than the one on his body can. That smell that comes from his bag overtook the smell of my mum's cooking leh. And he is not even clearing his stuff, wait till everyone in the house faint he also wont clear one lor TCH. How i wish i have blocked nose right now.

2010-12-05T10:05:00.003+08:00

Family gathering today over at godparents' house! :D ahahahas, more of like cousins gathering actually, since my parents and my other cousins' parents didnt go over for steamboat. The adults are buzyyyyy, so only the 'children' turned up for steamboat. Had a greatttt time over there. Studied a lil over at cousin's house. Should have slept instead of studying there, cant really focus well since cousin Sharon and her bf were talking to me. But i enjoyed talking to them though. xD

Was a lil nervous and excited when I was on my way to their house before that, cause I actually havent told my cousins and my godparents about me being being attached. Haiya, I was expecting that my cousins should know lah, since it is official in fb. So hard not to find out unless they dont really use fb lah. Wanted to tell my godparents about it, but cousin Sharon said i shouldnt tell her yet lol. She said i should just tell her when i'm 18, and that's like.. 6months later? LOL. That's kinda like a 'legal age' for the children to get attached in the family (excluding my family haha, since my parents are less strict than them). That's what cousin Julia said. xD
So in the end, I didnt tell my godparents about it. :\
I cant imagine when i tell them 6months later sia. If they were to ask me when i'm attached, and i said 8months ago, I'll probably still get it fom them lor. Lol. But I should just wait for 6months and see what happen lah. xD

While cousin Julia drove me home, she was like asking me how i know chan and stuff. Before her cousin Sharon and her boyf did asked me about him too LOL. And both of them all said he should be some smart boy cause he's studying in some banking and finance course. YA, he's some 'smart' boy, act smart only. :p cousin Julia also mentioned about the 3 F's that we should have in life, that is Family, Friends and Faith. She was saying that in any case if we happen to break up, which i really hope not, I must always rmb this 3 Fs. If we dont have family, it's okay that if we have only friends and faith. And if we do not have friends, then we should have family and faith. It works either ways, but it's best to achieve the 3 Fs. Our life will be complete if we achieved the 3 Fs.

2010-12-04T22:45:00.002+08:00

Suppose to meet the cool boy at changi airport to study at 9am, but i woke up at 8.30am knowing that i'll never make it on time and also knowing that he'll still be sleeping (since i didnt receive any sms/missed calls by him) then. At last we both reached changi airport at around 11am, cause i was doing my art prep for children church and he woke up only at 10am+ LOL.

Actually I set my alarm at 6.30am lor, but i couldnt wake up and let it ring for 2hours. :p

Studied till 2pm, and was quite surprised that I'm actually able to study quite a bit with that cool boy there with me. In fact I can study better. I thought I'll be distracted by his presence or smth. Glad that he did his tutorial too, though he didnt finish doing it. I wanna study with him again sia. Off to serve at children church after that. So many crying kids today. Feeling sooo shag after serving. Gah. And now as I'm typing, I'm like falling asleep alr. Probably I should just stop here.

2010-12-03T07:54:00.003+08:00

AHhhhhhh. I'm feeling nervous about my class quiz later.
I'm feeling cold, I think I'm gonna fall sick soon.
I feel really bad cause I realise forget to send out sms to the cg.
I really look down on myself, cause sometimes I really feel that I'm so useless.
I'm of no help to others. I only bring problems to them.

Class quiz is not meant for us to fail, it'll definitely be easy enough for us to pass. Besides the teacher is really lenient when she marked our previous quizzes.
I dont know what positive thing can I say for this. Uh, since i feel that I'm falling sick soon, I should take good care of my body now.
I didnt do it on purpose, next time I should set reminder in case I forget again.
I'm not useless. I know I can be of help in some other areas. I'll be giving storytelling to the kids in MYMCA later. see, I'm not useless.
I dont bring problems to them. Helping them with little things like carrying stuff for them and bringing stuff that they need show that I really make a difference.

Stream of Consciousness Morning Journal

2010-12-02T10:06:00.003+08:00

I've read an article about having a morning journal, and i thought it's quite interesting. Writing down whatever you thought in the morning journal the moment you wake up every morning w/o editing can help ppl to rid themselves of "mental debris", allowing them to become more focus on accomplishing their goals during the rest of the day.

After writing down your thoughts, read thru it again and underline those thoughts that you find negative, then rewrite them as a positive affirmation.

e.g (negative thought) "I'm feeling restless to go to school for lesson later. "

(and rewrite with positive affirmation)

"I'm excited and I cant wait to go to school for lesson muahahaha."

Okay, maybe that example i gave wasnt that good, but haha. :p

Anw, I decided I should TRY to write one every morning when i wake up too. yeeeehahahaha.

Okay, though I woke up like 3hours ago, but since i'm in the school library doing nothing (cause i skipped lecture cause i'm late and dare not enter the LT now :\), i thought this is a good time to write my 'morning' journal today. :p

I'm feeling depressed cause I lost track of the work and projects that i got to do and complete and I dont know where to start from now.
I feel bad for being late for every lesson all the time, I have no time management.
I am so stupid cause i know a few strategies to help me solve these problems, but i dont apply those strategies and all i do is doing nothing to solve the problems.
I can't wait to meet my friends and celebrate their birthday during our long break today. :)
I'm afraid that I will start to feel unmotivated to do my work an project soon.
I dont look forward to the next time that i got to speak up.
I am afraid of being embarassed by myself and people giving me the weird look.
And I dont really like my sweaty palm.

I am motivated to do my work and projects and as long as I do it whenever I am free, even if i have 30min of time to do, I can finish my work and project bit by bit. :)
Everyone has their weakness, I shouldnt feel bad about it but to slowly change for the better. It will happen. x)
I am not stupid and I should try applying some strategies and see if they can help to solve my problems. No harm trying even if it fails, cause at least i know i've tried it. :))
I will always be motivated and excited to complete my projects and workk! I will keep having different ways to keep me motivated! xD
"You'll never enjoy your life living behind the bars. YOu're so afraid of taking chances, how you gonna reach the top?" I should not be afraid or nervous of speaking up, but grab every opportunity to do so, as much as i dont want to. LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST.
I shouldnt be embarrassed by myself, it's normal for people to make mistake and ppl dont give me weird look. I think too much. (LOL at this. xD)
What's wrong with sweaty palm? So many people say they dont mind my sweaty palm, in fact almost everyone around me, so why do i mind so much about it? Forget about those who're disgusted by my sweaty palm, they dont know what they're saying and i still love them for who they are. :):):)

Ohgosh, I should try to love myself more man.

Ahhhh! I do feel better now! I know I'm starting to love myself moreee tooo. :D:D:D:D

2010-08-17T09:37:00.000+08:00

LOOOOOOOOOL. An even OLDER POST hereeeeeee.

3 years agoooo!! It was during the june holidays when i was sec2 leh. xD

it's only a fewww pictures of my family vacation to taiwan.

i dont even rmb taking all these pictures mannn. xD

WHAT AN OLD POST!

2010-08-17T09:07:00.001+08:00

LOL. I was viewing the posts thru my blogger and realised that i have a super old post that i havent post since May2008! :O

It was saved as draft for 2years++!
And i know it'll be kinda pointless to post it now. but after looking at those pics, i've decided to post it. xD

it's not a very long post, but i wanna post mainly because of the pictures. xD

okay, so here it is.

hello.
i shall post the picturesssss i took with HUIMIN<3.

HUIMIN'S SO CRAZYYYYY!

LOL! i look so studious with her specs. xD

took pitures with her youngest bro as well. he's so cute lah. xD

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL. that's all. i think this post was not completed.

Nightmares

2010-08-13T13:23:00.005+08:00

Okay, i had nightmare last night. I rarely have nightmares one lor. And i know it's after watching 'Inception' that I started having nightmares and weird dreams. :\

And just like what that guy in 'Inception' talked about dreams, I realised that i cant really rmb the beginning and the end of my dream. Now i believe what he said man. I only rmb the part where i was at the food court onwards, where i cant decide what food to buy.

Dreamt of her as well, the one whom i always cant get over that we're not bff now. After buying my food i was looking for table to settle down, then i saw her.
Sat with her and some other ppl i cant rmb who.
She gave me the look when i asked if i could sit with her, but she nodded her head. Then she went to buy pepsi light canned drink. I treated her like how i would treat a best friend, and asked her if she could share her drink with me. She stared at me and doesnt seems to be willing at all. I wonder if this dream is telling me smth, that i should just forget about her and moveeee on. It feels like it's telling me that even when we really meet one day to patch things up, things will never be the same anymore, even if i still treat her as a best friend.
Okay, continue with my dream. Since she kept quiet, i took it as she agreed to share it with me, since 'silence means consent'. So i acted ignorant and turn to my bag to look for my wallet so that i could pay her the shared cost of the drinks, and realised that i've lost my wallet.

Lol, and i dont know why, I ran to burger king (instead of the stall that i bought food from the food court. In my dream, i didnt even go BK to buy anything lah. weird.) to look for my wallet. I saw this weird looking guy staring at me when i was at the entrance of BK. But i pretended that i didnt see him. I went to the counter and asked the person for my lost wallet. And in my dream i was using my old wallet, not the current one. hmph. The person went in to check and my found my wallet. As i was on my way back to the food court i realised that my left thumb was missing, so i went back to BK again to ask the person, and they found my thumb. I dont know how, but i somehow managed put my thumb back. Though it fits perfectly when i put it back, it looks slightly fatter then my usual thumb. At first when i put my thumb back, I cant feel it at all, but after trying to wriggle my thumb for a short while, my left thumb felt numb and finally felt normal.

When everything seems back to normal, i walked back to the food court, and on my way back i open my wallet to check if anything was missing. But turned out that I have more than $100++ when i only have 10bucks left before i lost my wallet. I was so shocked and felt smth isnt right. Then i saw a note in my wallet, which says "Shock to see so much money? Bring me your sis and we'll sell her to bring you more money," I was scared, i dont know what the person is trying to tell me. I was wondering if he had alr kidnapped my sis, if this was considered a kidnapping case, or was the 'sis' actually referring to me, cause the note probably was meant for my family/sis to see, not me. I somehow knew my family was in trouble, felt sooo scared and started running. Then I felt that i was being watched as I run. I kept running, and as i run, thoughts of my family being in danger and my sis being killed flashed through my mind. Then i ran till i was standing in the middle of the road that is surrounded by buildings, and the road is closed as there's a performance going on. And before i knew, bullets were flying everywhere and all the performers were shot.

Then i woke up. URGH. nightmare. (N) The dream felt sooo long. dont wanna talk abt it anymore. :\

2010-08-12T12:46:00.002+08:00

I cant believe it's August now mannnnn!

And I'm havingggggggg looooooooong holiday. :D

Really wanna spend more quality times with BFF HUIMIN and Vania <3.

And it's been a long time since I've blogged and i know that. :\

Dont even know if i still wanna continue blogging or not.

And I realise i havent touch my diary for a loooong loooong time as well! haiyo.

I'm soo gonna start writing in my diary for almost every single day from now on! :D

I miss writing almost everything in my diary every single day. :\

Secrets that i'm too embarrassed to tell anyone, ahahahahas, it makes me laugh so hard when i flipped back and read those diary entries that i've wrote. xD

Okay, if i'm gonna start writing every single day from now on, this means that i got to buy more diaries. I have not much pages left to write in my current diaryy. >.<

So, today i'm going to meet dylan to study later.

Well, more of like he's studying, not me. xD

I shall do my online quiz/journal logs while he studies.

And my mummy's coming home today! :D

Kekekes.

Hopefully she bought me sport shoes and jackets this time. *beam*

Coooooool.

So i shall start writing in my diary now.

I miss you diary. :)

P.S Glee's really awesome. Ahahahahas. Next Target: The Big Bang Theory. x)

you're missed by me.

2010-08-04T19:53:00.002+08:00

I was looking at my old posts, again. I dont know why i love looking at my old posts, and reminiscing about the things we did together. They are really unforgettable. I really wish that i can go back to those days again. Everything changed, so much. And i know i should just move on with life.

And no matter what, although we dont really keep in contact anymore, you will still be one of the best friends in my life. You played a big part in my life, and i will not forget. I must have been a lousy best friend then. I think the problem lies with me and I've caused our friendship to be damaged. I know this friendship cannot be mend anymore, but neither do i want to let it go out of my life. I think you must be really special to me. I must be crazy to be still missing you and still feeling the hurt in my heart when our friendship crumbled about a year back.

I've learnt alot though. And it's only when our friendship crumbled then i realise you're really a good friend. Sighh. But what's the use of saying all these now. I shouldn't even be looking back at the past. And hopefully i can stop looking at the old posts and think about you again. It's kinda pointless. But I'll still keep you in prayer though.

You've been missed by me much, but i will tell myself that this will be the last time.

And i do cherish friendship alot, especially the friendship we once had. Really.

But you and i, we both know that it's impossible for us to be the best of friends ever again.

Time to let go.

Life still goes on,

2010-04-15T08:13:00.007+08:00

Sigh. Monday was my last day of work. johan's last day of work as well. i bought sweets for all of my colleague. then they came to me and shook hands with me, wishing me all the best and all. Most of them were aunties and only one or two were uncles. Permanent staff are all uncles and aunties. All the temp staff are all the young ppl. i'm the youngest though. xD

On our last day of work, we toooook lots of pic. glam, unglam, funny and uh.. random pics too.

Kris is super funny and weird in a cool way. xD She loves to poke and tickle ppl, as well as hugging ppl. you'll know which one in the pic is Kris even w/o me naming anyone of the ppl in the pic. you'll see what i mean.

LOL. Actually everyone was a lil frightened by her when she started going round hugging us. xD

The lady in the pic right above is Leetheng, one of the temp staff too, also our super close colleague. We always have dinner after with her and aunty lihua, another closest colleague of ours. :D

Went for dinner with Leetheng, aunty lihua and sijie as well. at wanzai, some hong kong cafe at century square, cause they know i love going there for dinner. xD And we took pictures of one another when we settled down, to keep it as a... memory. xD

Here's Leetheng..

followed by Johan.

then uh, picture of me..

Aunty Lihua :D ,

and sijie. :)

Supposedly there should be Ben as well, but he was absent on our last day of work. He said he was sick. Hmmm, cant be blame. :\
Bought gifts for all the close colleague. They are so nice and funny and friendly and cool, i really think i should give them gifts to thank them for making work such an enjoyable and fun thing to do. ;)

Omgosh i dont think i'll ever forget them man. We promised to meet up for dinner even though Johan and i stopped work. I'll make myself free during dinner time more often man. x)

They rock rock rock.

ABCDEFG, Thank You God for everything! :)

2010-04-01T16:06:00.004+08:00

Ah okay. i know my blog was dead for quite some time. BUT that is not because i'm lazy or i didnt want to update okay, it's actually because i didnt have the time to ever since i started working as quality checker. this job is killing me. i dont even have enough time for myself la. i got to work from mon-sat, no kid man. :\

actually i didnt want a job that requires me to work on saturdays as well, but Kelly Services told me that i got to work only on alternate Saturdays, so i reluctantly accept this job offer. But then it turns out i got to work every sat. cheat my feeling. -.- But one thing i like about going to work is that there's freeeee company transport to work, but.. i'm always late lah. -.- since i dont know how to travel to the workplace by public transport, i got to cab there whenever i missed the company transport. and the taxi fare always cost about $20++. -.- let's not talk about it. :\

AHAHAHAHAHA ANYWAY,

I'VE GOT GOOOOOOOOOD NEWSSSSSSS. :D

I'VE GOT INTO DIPLOMA IN EARLY CHILDHOOD STUDIES IN TP!

OMGOSHOMGOSH.

THINKING OF IT JUST MAKES ME GO INSANE.

I STILL CANT BELIEVE THAT I REALLY REALLY GOT INTO THE COURSE I WANTED SO BADLY MAN.

When i received the call from them on monday, i was overjoyed man. as soon as i put down the phone, i was jumping about at the mrt station. I didnt know why i jump actually, but i know i was so excited and i couldnt control myself from not jumping about. now i think i know the meaning of 'jump for joy'. after that i was tooo overjoyed that i couldnt contain it anymre, and i started crying. LOL and i suppose that's 'tears of joy'. Indeed, that feeling is really wayyy much better than striking lottery. xD And you know what, i went for both gerontological and early childhood interview actually, and i thought i would get into gerontological cause i only missed it by 1point, but i got into early childhood, when i missed it by 5points! 5POINTS! can you believe it!

And i know and i know and i know, this couldnt be possible without Him! :) Prayers and fastings are really powerful! And of course, confessing THE word too! Everytime after praying and fasting, i feel so good. I was amazed by how praying and fasting increased my level of faith and makes me believe that i'm able to get into early childhood despite the huge diff between my agg points and the cut-off point, and also how i confess that i can get into early childhood thru dae and received call from tp later on that very same day. I know these are definitely not coincidence. The sacrifices i made, praying and fasting, it was all worth it. You really make me believe. Thank you God, for everything. <3>
Whose hands are these
Holding my trapeze
When I fly
You carry me
Whose eyes are these
Watching over me
Eyes of love
That set me free

Unafraid
What's ahead
You are always there before
My whole world
Your design
You are always there
Just right behind

My life is Your song
To You my heart belongs
Let all earthly crowns
Fade in the shadow of the cross
My life is Your song
I'll sing for You alone
Nothing in this world
Can take me away from You
Our love goes on and on

P.s Oh, and i also wanna thank all those who pray and fast for me, not to forget those who encouraged me as well. You all know who you are. YOU GUYS ROCK TO THE MEXICO! ;D

as Busy as a Businesswoman.

2010-02-11T09:08:00.005+08:00

Woah. I've been super busy lately, even though i didnt have work.

I realised i've been sleeping sooooo late that i couldnt wake up early in the morning to fast.

So I've planned to sleep at 9-10pm so that i can wake up early to fast. x)

Anyway, it's not that i didnt have the time to blog, but i was just so lazyyy to blog, but'll still try to blog frequently. :D

oh, two days ago i called Q&M Dental Clinic for an appointment for consultation. I didnt know Q&M has soooo many branches around s'pore. I made appointment with the one at century square. so convenient for me lah. :) hahaha. so i have appointment on 24feb.

24feb, Tuesday. :) mustmust rmb!

On that very same day, i went out w/ BFF huimin:) and window shopped at somerset. okay, she window shopped, not me. xD later in the evening, i went to far east with esther and yuting, and i had new green hair extension again! :D

anyway, i wanna have a temporary tattoo! and and, do you know that other than sentosa, far east has one temp tattoo shop too?! lol okay, i'm sure there's many other places that has temp tattoo shop, but these are the only two places that i know so far. so cool so cool. :D

Yesterday, i woke up at 2pm, given the fact that i slept at 5am plus the day before. Then i was so bored at home, i started moving soooo slowlyyy to killlll time. i was doing things so slowly for so long that day, i couldn't adjust back to doing things fast after that. and so, when i went to meet my sis at somerset and since i couldnt do things fast, i was late. -.-

went to cali fitness and finally signed up for membership. had body balance class and hatha yoga class with sis. i was so tired after the classes that i went to bed once i've washed up and changed into my pjs when i reached home. oh, and not to forget, my facial treatment as well. xD

i called many many childcare centres, but none of them need a helper at the moment. :( i'm so sadddddd, sad to the maximum. kelly services called ytd and told me they found me a job, yeah so i just agreed to take the job and gave up hunting for childcare centres. i'll start work on 17/18jan. and i'm gonna work with johan again. LOL.

i've been sleeping early lately, so when i wake up at 5plus in the morning, i didnt know what to do. -.-

i realised that i've been watching channel newsasia every morning i wake up. and you know what? i really enjoy watching it in the morning. I find it kinda interesting. :)

Okay so, today my family's gonna have an early reunion dinner. :D sis bf is coming to join us. xD

Oh, and i said i wanna upload the pictures i took with him showing off his buffed body right? i almost forgot. i think i'll upload it in my next post lah. i'm soo lazy to upload it now.

yay yay. lou-hei, lou-hei. :D

i still can't believe i remembered it as hei-lou lah. sounds like halo. -.-

remember the milk.

2010-02-02T06:35:00.002+08:00

hey!
do you guys know about http://www.rememberthemilk.com ?
so coool can, i think it's meant for forgetful ppl, like me. :D
It's like a to-do list, but the cool version cause it has a reminder so that you will not forget to do it.
and it's also super cool cause you can you can get reminded anywhere, via emails, instant messenger, and even sms can! xD
you can even add task through your phone. so convenient.
of course there's more cool things rememberthemilk can do lah, but if you wanna know more then go to the website and see it for yourself lah. xD

oh anw, i wanted to go and work in child care centre. wanted to go down and ask em' ytd, but i kelly services called and informed me to go down to work immediately when i woke up. -.- i cant go today too, since i've got to work today as well. D:

okay. i think i'm going to be late for work.

The sun will shine like never before.

2010-01-29T12:07:00.005+08:00

I didnt go back to school ytd to collect my testimonial. i've decided to ask my bro to collect it for me, since he's still studying in GMS, which i totally forgot about it till alson the gaykia kinda reminded me. xD

okok, so i will start doing research and read-ups on early childhood and gerontological related stuff once i got it back. since mummy have not call for delivery for The Strait Times, i got to buy newspaper everyday then. sigh.

actually, i think i can do a super good portfolio for the interview, i'm just afraid of the part where they interview me and i got tell them about myself, why do i think i'm good enough for this course and everything. i'll stammer and crack my knuckles during the interview w/o knowin for sure. :\

jiayou, vivian! just try your best lah, you can do it! :)

i'm going to meet sis at orchard at 6pm before going gym. talking about gym, i missed the open house at california fitness ytd. :\ if i were to sign up for membership ytd, i'll get lots of goodies leh. vivi loves goodies. :(
nvm. see if i'll still get goodies today or not, since sis knows one of the staffs in cali fitness pretty well. xD

anw, i was listening to the new songs, and i came accross this song. it's 'stranded' by Jay-Z, Bono, The Edge and Rihanna. I kinda like this song, but not the rapping part by Jay-Z.

[Jay-Z - Chorus]
When the sky falls and the Earth quakes
We gon put this back together
We won’t break
[repeat]

[Jay-Z]
Sak Pase, my Port-Au-Princes
my Haitian Gods and all of my Princesses
Our condolences as you fightin’ against this
we’re right by your side as we tryin’ to make sense of this
heavenly father help us see through these problems
and for those that left, accept them into your garden
so here’s my theory, the country’s already starvin’
so we sacrificed many to shed light on all of them
God please pardon, I speak from the heart
its the only way I see this tragedy befall on them
so lets get involved with them, hand to hand with them
arm to arm with them til they get strong again,
When the sky falls…

(Rihanna and Bono – hook)
Can’t wait until tomorrow(x2)
Haiti a Mi Amor
Haiti, Mon Amour
Not gonna leave you stranded, alone, alone
oh no

[Chorus]

[Jay-Z Verse 2]
Learn from the past, New Orleans was flooded
So we know we just can’t rely on the government
We under the rubble again, here we go rumbling when
When we gon catch a break, my friend lost his mother and then
And then, Carline lost her uncles and them
Buried with no caskets, they just put covers on them
And the tears fall, and we fight back
Story ain’t done, it can’t end like that
Nah not like this, tomorrow’s survivors gonna carry on your name
You live on inside us, your memory’s alive with us
You inspired us, to rebuild this country, you just guide us

[Hook]
[Bono]
It’s not the angels that are on their way
its not the bells of Santa Trinite
people waiting in positions begging
for hands to help not just to pray

[Hook]

[French singing]
Haïti va s’élever
Tu vas te relever
Nous nous éléverons
Ensemble ensemble ensemble

(not gonna leave you stranded…)

[Jay-Z]
we gon put this back together we wont break
we gon put this back together we wont break
we gon put this back together we wont break
we gon put this back together we wont break
[End]

should i put red or green colour braces? i really cant decide. how? D:

Love today; we have an awesome God. :)

2010-01-28T23:01:00.006+08:00

met meimei today to buy her havanas for her b'day gift from me, but she's the one who paid it, because i've got no $$ at all, since i've lost my pouch, so i couldnt even use my atm card. :\ but i'll pay her the $$ back as soon as i got my atm card replaced lah. x)

after that the "movie ppl" came to my house for movie night again. watch "Shorts" which esther rented and the last 30min of "The Incredibles" at Disney Channel.

wah. i fasted 6am-6pm today, and after fasting i didnt have a proper meal. just ate snacks while watching movie and i'm full alr. but it's so so unhealthy. eeee. :\

i've been sleeping so late for the past few days, like 6/7am. i feel like i'm an owl or smth, and i dont like it. i'm going to sleep earlier from today onward, like 2-3am the latest. :)

yeah anw, on the way to my house with esther and yuting before the movie night just now, i was looking out of the window while yuting and esther were chatting. I was worried that i couldnt get into any courses that i've applied through DAE, and so happen when the bus stopped opp St.Hilda school, i saw a verse. It says,

"Be joyful always, pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus." 1 Thessalonians 5:17

i felt peaceful and so much more relieved after reading the verse. just when i'm at my lowest point of life, He never fails to ease our heart when we are worried or down. I'm really glad to know Him. i really am. and of course, the ppl around me whom He've sent to encourage me. Many thanks to those who encouraged me, thru sms and msn, and the movie gang for buying me pooh bear pillow. xD It's so foolish of me to have thought of going to ite. how can. :(

My aunt, who is a catholic, happen to come to my house to pass smth to my mum, so i had a chat with her. she asked me about my posting results. after i told her about it, she encouraged me too, and told me that no matter what course i'll get into, even if i didnt get into early childhood, always give thanks to the Lord. Not able to get into the course that i want may be the wrong path that i've chosen in my life, that's why He's guiding me back to the right path. who knows i might do better. Everything happens for a reason.

Not my will, but yours be done.

"The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song" (Psalm 28:7).

God will provide. He will make a way for me when there seems to be no way.

Thank you God, thank you for everything that You've done. Thank you for many awesome friends and relatives around me.

I love You, God. Your righteousness, goodness and love endure forever. <3

i would rather go ITE, and interview's my greatest fear.

2010-01-27T23:46:00.008+08:00

MOE: VIVIAN POH HUI XIN, you are posted to NANYANG POLY, ELECTRONICS, COMPUTER & COMMUNICATIONS ENGG (C89) under 2010 JAE.

i'm totally speechless. it's not even in my 12choices. i don't even know what this course's about. and my JPSAE, it was unsuccessful too. i've got friends who got lousier results than me, but still able to get into those courses they want. and at least they can get into one of their choices.

i wanted to cry so badly, but i just couldnt cry out. i dont know why, and i told my sis about it. she told me because i was too upset about it, thats why i couldnt cry.

but it's no use getting upset at all, not as if i can get into early childhood if i cry for hours.

everything happen for a reason, right?

so i've registered for DAE in tp straight after i saw my message sent by MOE, and am going to fast and pray hard that i'll be able to get in to early childhood, or gerontological course in tp.

after that i went to registered for DAE in nyp, hoping that if i couldnt get in to the courses in tp, i could get in to hospitality & tourism management or social science(but less likely for social science, since the cut-off point is 14).

and i'm going to np tomorrow to register for DAE. i cant imagine myself travelling from tampines to clementi, but yeah, i want to get into early childhood course you see. :\

seriously, i was so prepared to get into ITE when we were waiting for the O' Level results. though my results are lousy, i was glad that i can get into poly. but now. if i really have got no choice but to go to that computer course i'm posted to, i rather i go ite. i really wanna do smth that i'm interested in.

but guess i just got to wait for my results for my DAE first, and prepare my portfolio for interview if i'm accepted by the courses. the advisor even told me to do newspaper cuttings and reflections on those articles. i have to sound convincing enough during the interview. Interview's my biggest fear. when i was talking to the advisor, she kinda gave me a feel of what the interview will be like, and i started getting nervous. when we leave tp, my sis was telling me that i was cracking my knuckles when the advisor interviewed me, and it was so loud that the advisor looks shocked and worried at the same time, and i didnt even know that i've cracked my knuckles! my sis even joked that i may not be selected for early childhood or gerontological cause' the advisor might think that i'll scare the children or the elderlies whenever i cracked my knuckles. CHOYCHOYCHOY! TOUCHWOOD!

yeah anyway, i'm going down to gms to collect my testimonial tmr.

vivi's gonna try her best and not give up. she'll be super prepared for the interview with a super strong portfolio to convince the interviewer. she'll overcome her fear.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, so there's no need to fear! everything's gonna be alright for me. i really believe.

I had a sweet dream ytd, how i wish it's real.

2010-01-26T16:32:00.008+08:00

LOL. i woke up t 3.30pm today sia. damn cool right. xD but it's because i slept at 7am. heeeees.
then i'm suppose to meet sis at 6pm in the gym, but i was late(as usual). i reached at 6.50pm i think. then we went 313 for dinner and shopped around. reached home at about 12.30am. i'm so tired now.

i'm so frustrated right now. even my spare phone is spoilt. so irritating lah. so hard to contact ppl. and i need to spend more $$ on transport, since i've lose my ez-link card. **bang head on the wall continuously** :\

To the movie gang. xD LOL.

the trailer for "my bloody valentine":

if you guys wanna watch. it's at 7-9pm on thur. usually it'll end ealier then the time listed, like around 8.30pm the earliest?

oh, and i saw another quite horror movie too.
it's call "mirrors", it's from 9-10.55pm on thur too.
and like i've said, it'll always end earlier than the time listed.
here's the trailer. :)

LOL. but do you guys actually wanna watch horror movies again? xD

one new thing i just know about myself. :D

2010-01-26T02:30:00.011+08:00

lol whoa. i woke up at 2pm in the afternoon, no wonder i cant sleep now. i was suppose to meet sis at 6.30pm to go gym tgt, but i was at home looking for my pouch that has my ez-link card and atm card in it, but i couldnt find it. D:
i thought i left it in mum's car, but it's not in there either. i think i lost my pouch. i'm sooo dead. BOOOOO. :\

so i ended staying at home till 8pm plus, then i left home to watch movie with my aunt and little qiqi @plaza sing. :) i borrowed ez-link card from my bro, since he didnt want to watch with us. and we were late for the movie. -.-

oh, and in case you're wondering who is qiqi,

that's her. xD

anyway anyway, we watched toothfairy, and it's nice! it's funny, and i like it. :D

Just that qiqi was super noisy throughout, kinda irritating, but it didnt really bother me. :) just felt a lil paiseh. xD

after that we went home. and LOL, qiqi loves taking mrt! so hilarious lah, she wanted to take the train instead of car, and she'll start throwing tantrum if she dont get to take a train ride home. she'll always cry when things dont go her way, which is kinda cute, but it's more irritating than cute lah. she's so spoilt. :\

while we were in the train to city hall, she was holding on to the pole and running around it. so cute can. x) i was laughing at her then, and that was when i looked up and happen to see this guy smiling while looking at her running around. my heart skipped a lil when i saw his smile. lol! i think he loves kids too. and before i knew, i realised i started turning at his direction many many times, so that i can take a quick peek at him smiling. omgosh i feel like i'm a pervert. but i think i was attracted to his smile. he's got a captivating smile you see. haha! xD

then i realised that i actually like guys who love children. lol, not that i dont like guys who dont like/hate children, but guys who love children score more points than those who do not, in terms of relationship lah. i just find them charmimg when they're playing with kids or smiling at them when the kids are playing. they're more attractive to me, compared to those who just stare at kids when they're playing or smth. x) yeah but dhoby ghaut to city hall's only one stop away from each other, so i've only get to gaze at him for less than 2min lah, cause he didnt alight at city hall. how sad right, i know. :( if i were to know his name, i'll surely stalk him in fb everyday. xD

yeah anw, after we board the green line train from city hall, qiqi started getting super haolian(arrogant), and insisted that she stands throughout the train ride home and didnt want to sit, cause she wanted to show off that she can balance and not fall whenever the train jerks a lil or stop at every station. so funny can, cause she cannot do it at all. i think she felt kinda embarrassed and frowned at us, then she complained to us and demand my aunt to let her sit. and in less than a minute, she jumped off from her seat and ran around the pole again. xD

they alighted at aljunied, then i took the rest of the ride home alone.

oh and ytd! after service and lunch and fellowship, movie night at my house! :D ahahahahas. so paiseh can! cause my sis, her bf and my bro haven't leave house yet, and i knew my sis' burly bf's gonna show off his muscles and six packs again. -.-"

but it was soooo funny can! he took off his shirt and asked my bro to take pictures of him. he even asked me to take picture with him. -.- i was reluctant at first, but after that i find it kinda fun and cool, then i took pic with him. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL. he's so funny ytd. xD

i'll upload the pictures soon i think, cause i dont have the pics with me. :)

and LOL. i know i look funny when i watch horror movie lah, but im just more afraid of the sound effect and the scary look of the cadaver lor, which i dont feel so scared after watching it, unlike johan and yuting. xD okay lah, which means im still scared right. -.- hehes. but this morning when i woke up i'm not scared anymore. i think this time if i were to watch it the second time, i'll not be afraid or scream anymore lah. x)

okay, hopefully i can upload the pics real soooooon. :)

maybe it's true that i can't live without you.

2010-01-24T00:59:00.011+08:00

HEYYYYYY.
yeah ever since my macbook was spoilt(i'm sure some of you knw why xD), i've been using my bro's macbook. then he got irritated. then since my sis' got a macbook and a fujitsu laptop, she gave her fujitsu one to me. HAHAHAHA, so i'll be using an old laptop for the time being. and i'm soooo used to using macbook, i kinda have difficulty using those normal laptop. -.- yeah anw, my family went to sis' bf's muscle and fitness war competition(smth like that) and supported him yesterday. WHOA. many many many muscular MANNNNNN. :O loss for words.. wasn't use to looking at so many macho guys with only their swimming trunks ONLY.
yeah anw, i'm soo proud of him, really am! cause he got into the 4th place. COOOOOOOL right? :D
but he was super sadddddd. :(
haiya, this is your first time joining this cometition and you got into 4th place leh! top 10 can! or top5, sounds nicer!
next year or two years later when you sign up for this competition again, i confirm you get into top 3 alr lah. then you'll be famous. :)

after that, we went to pizza hut with his two friends and her mum to celebrate. i ate a garlic bread, and 3slices of pizza! well, considering that i've only drank yakult and ate only 1 small slice of dried mango the day before, two slices of plain softmeal bread for breakfast today and skipped lunch, 3slices of pizza for dinner aren't that much right.

sigh. i cant sleep. not that i cant sleep, just that i do not want to go to bed. because recently, i just can't stop thinking about the past. those happy times we had tgt. i was looking at my old post, then i was looking at yours too. then i became emotional. i really really miss you. how did it even turn out this way. i really really wanna get crazy and have fun with you again, really. and i know it's impossible. and i still wanna keep in contact with you, and meet up with you, but i dont know how. i know it would be awkward if we were to meet up, or even happen to see each other on the street someday, but i just dont know why, i still wanna stay in contact with you, forever and ever. when we became super close, i've start to learn how to accept the way one is, because i didnt really like how you do things at times. i accept the way you are, though sometimes it's really hard for me to do so. and now, when i try to let you go, knowing that it's almost impossible to salvage our friendship, i realise that deep deeep down in my heart, i still treat you as my best friend, and it's kinda hard to forget you.
do you rmb whenever i hug you, i'll start crying? i rmb you were there when i had my accident, the first person(other than the paramedic) i saw was you when i became conscious in the ambulance. but now. how did it even turn out this way. what really happen, i really cannot rmb. maybe smth happened and it was my fault. i dont know. i used to think we will be best friends for manymany years down the road. it's just not the same anymore.

guess your blog and your fb are the only two ways to contact you in future. i know i have your phone no, but i guess that you'll not reply my sms, right?

anyhow, i still wanna tell you that i still <3 you.

i think you've left a scar in my heart, maybe the next time when i happen to see you on the street someday, dont be shocked if i suddenly go over to hug you and cry okay.

"everytime i sit and ask myself, how did love slipped away?"

i cherish our friendship alot,i really do.

I'M AN ANIMAL WITH PRETTY EYES.

2010-01-22T02:10:00.012+08:00

Huimin taught me how to put on contacts when i go to her house. i brought my green clour contacts there and was super excited and nervous at the same time. LOL.

Then my palm starts to sweat alot and refuse to stop sweating no matter how, making it more difficult to put on the contacts. :(

When i first put on my right contact, my right eye started tearing. then i remember someone(cant rmb who) told me if it starts tearing means that i've put on my contacts the wrong side. Then it stop tearing as soon as i took it out, flipped it over, and put it on again. so cool can. xD

Went to pastamania at singpost for dinner with huimin after that. im glad that i've went to her house and had dinner with her. :D

Esther and rest were already at my house watching 'Resident Evil'. So i went home after that to join them. Though i scream alot, but i still wanna say it's not scary. I was just frightened by all the sudden attacks, that's why i scream lor. xD

Hahahaha. anyway,

I think my eyes look bigger too right. The green contacts on my eyes dont look that real when you look closely, which is :(. And ppl cant tell I was wearing colour contacts when they're not so near, but they're not so far either.

JY's exceptional lor, he's standing right in front of me and he still didnt know i was wearing green contact. he really is colour blind. xD Haha, and see how JY commented on my eyes with greeeeeen contact.

[01/22/10 01:31:38 ] 加乐米 : from far cant tell

[01/22/10 01:31:38 ] 加乐米 : but near near den scary :P

[01/22/10 01:31:38 ] 加乐米 : look like animal

-.- i'm an animal.

then he commented again..

[01/22/10 01:33:20 ] 加乐米 : yeah but its just that not used to it

[01/22/10 01:33:43 ] 加乐米 : but the scariness is countered cuz your eyes quite pretty

[01/22/10 01:33:46 ] 加乐米 : so not so scary

so now i'm a 'not so scary animal with pretty eyes'. -.-"

Didnt clarify with him if it's a compliment, but I'd like to take it as a compliment. :D

Esther said my green contacts look like blue contacts instead. Hmph. There's only one thing I can conclude, esther. You are colour blind too, just like JY.

LOL. kidding kidding. xD

YAY. so now i've finally know how to wear contacts. Now i cant wait to put on greeeeen braces. Imagine me with my green hair extension, green contacts, green braces, green nails and green dress. xD

Omgosh, i think i'll look like a green freak. Okay maybe w/o the green dress i'll still look okay. xD

So cool, so fun. I love meeting and talking to huimin! i love movie night!

I wanna do these more often! <3

Oh, and check this out. :)

I won't be lonely.

2010-01-21T13:16:00.002+08:00

I realise i've been thinking alot recently, which got me feeling moody, especially ytd. and poor bro, got to bear with my tepmer on the way to gym thru the phone. during and after gym too. i think he couldnt take it and gave me attitude too. but during the train ride home, i decided not to be such a mood spoiler and stopped being so annoying. And so i took out my storybook to read, while he played with his ipod touch, and whenever he talked to me, i'll just try my best to reply nicely.
Hmph.
Yeah anyway, so i'm going to gym later with bro before meeting huimin. hees. oh, and movie night @ my house! almost forgot. -.-

AREN'T I'M SWEET, AREN'T I'M COOL? :D

2010-01-20T03:04:00.018+08:00

HEEEEES.

Hi!

Finally, finally i've updated my blog. -.-

I feel so paiseh whenever ppl ask me for my blog url and find that it's actuallysoooo dead. >.<

And all those comments in my tagboard, asking me to update.

so i've decided to update. yay.

and seriously, i've kinda like forgot how to blog, and do not know how to blog anymore,since i've not blog for 1year++. omgosh.

but it's okay, cause i've decided to post smth really random, retard and real cooool too. :D

yeah i was bored when i realise my bro fell asleep while watching tv.

and guess what i did. seriously it's super uber retard, so you can just laugh(at me, or my bro) for all you want.

okay, i know you all gonna say i'm a bad sis. :\

but i was too bored, i cant help it! but at least i took pictures with him, and not taking pictures alone right. :D besides, it's been a long time ever since i took pictures with him. :)

i just hope he will not get angry when he sees this. hopefully he wont la, he's so understanding. xD

yeah okay, so i've updated my blog. i think i'll start blogging more often from now on.

Don't say my blog is dead anymore!

GOOD NIGHT AND SWEEET DREAMS IN ADVANCE! :D

love ya, bro! ♥

P.S Ah, and i've cut my fringe and trimmed my hair, only. :)

2008-12-29T16:26:00.002+08:00

oh dear. mum went overseas, dad went overseas.
and i have not buy my books yet.
aww man.
the health promotion board person called me just a moment ago and ask me if my mum told me about today's appointment for my spine.
i was like, 'uhh... no.'
mummmy actually forgot to tell me about it. hmph.
anw, they gave me a new appointment date.

it's on 5JAN2009.

i purposely put the date of my next appointment cause i hope some kind soul will remind me on that day. i know i will forget you see.

oh, and just so you know,
there's a 31st in december. -.-
i didnt know till belle told me.
aiyoyo.

alright, i shall end here.
:D

2008-06-09T19:53:00.004+08:00

hello.

i was so bored. i didn't know what to do.

so i took manyyyyy pictures, but didnt plan to post all of it anw.
it' all my super retarded and lameeeeeeo pictures.

look at my eyeeeeeeee...BAG!

i dont really know why i post all these anw, maybe cause i was bored.

2008-06-05T22:48:00.020+08:00

hello.
yesyes, i was celebrating my birthday yesterday. so i shall post all the pics today. XD
cousin chiuling, dad, mum, aunt, uncle, bro, sis, tian, wanxin and sihui went to celebrate my birthhhhh--dayyyyyyyy. :)

we went to this sakura japanese restaurant(what do you call that?)
took many pictures.

not me, but my sis and bro.
while waiting for the food, my sis and bro went crazy, how dramatic can they be? XD

TAKE 1!

TAKE 2!

TAKE 3!

TAKE 4!

O.O have you got any comment(s)?

lols.

took many pictures with cousin chiuling toooooooo lah. all the lame pictures lah.

however, more pictures were still taken even when we're eating. lols.

ohh, the candles are yellow and green in colour! XD

1 big candle, and 5 small candles,

i'm 15 alr. ;D

i'll let these pictures do the talking.
thanks tian, sihui and wanxin for being able to make it to celebrate my birthday with me, especially to tian, for rushing just to make it on time. ;D

2008-05-17T09:07:00.021+08:00

okay. exams are finally over!

OHYES OHYES.

andd i don t know whyyy, i have so many picctures taken during the exams period. o.o

okay. GAY PICTURES FIRST. ;D

thisistotallyretarded. iknow.

mother's day pressie.

it's all not organised i know. i'm too lazy to organise those pictures.

anyway, introducing...

MY NIECE!!!

she's so small can! so cute.
see that uncle, he's so happy to carry his first niece.

oh, and she loves to frown.

and sleep..

and i love this picture! teehees.

i love her sooo much. anw, she's a premature childy child, she's born earlier.

that's why she's so so so...
so fragile.

and she's also super uber lovely and lively.

see the way this baby frown and yawn attracts everyone's attention.
and seriously, i cant wait to see her again!

i shall end here now. byeeee. wheeeee.

2008-04-23T20:57:00.001+08:00

hahs. guess what. just took a few pictures with bro just now. and decided to post it. damn funny la.
i randomly asked him to take picture with me, and he agreed, which is unexpected la.
but all the pictures turn out, uh, very funny(to me)?

emo pic(-.-):

my bro looks horny here.

and he looks like an idiot here. -.-

and finally this. (LAUGH OUT LOUD MAN!)

i was a lil high just now, and so i suggested that we should try to take a pic such that we look super alike. -.- ROFL. that's the best we could do. is like, omg? i think i'm crazy.
and if you have notice, my bro is fairer than me. O.O
it's SO SO.. omg.

2008-04-20T11:06:00.001+08:00

studying geog, preparing for MYE at cousin sharon's house.

i was eating mango while studying, and realise that i've 'bitten' out a heart shape from a mango's flesh.

tsk, sorry for the lameness, but i really dont know what to post.

anyway, sunset few days back i guess, when i was walking home from tution, was super nice. the sun is red in colour la. but it turn out orange in the picture when i snapped a shot of it.

whatever la okay? i'm going to end here. bye.

2008-04-13T19:09:00.001+08:00

BB and GB Enrolment service

mum wanted everyone one of us to go, to support my bro.
so my sis, her bf and i went there with mum.
and sis took many pictures of him. -.-
many unglam(but didn't post all).

ahahahas. and also not to forget, cousin chiuling! ;D
went there actually because of you. XD

yes, -s m i l e!- ;D

suppose to go for lunch together after that, but mum wasn't feeling well.
everyone was not in good mood after that, including mw, and i dont know why.
oh well..
i shall stop here. nothing much happen today. :\

2008-04-12T13:34:00.000+08:00

yesterday.

after guides, we played captain ball. play like siao la, when some of us have to go for 'the little night concert' thingy after that.

meet vania after that. XD

in the school toilet.

my face is still red, but cannot really see in this picture.

that's vania, talking on the phone.

suei suei. alson and jianming sit in front of us.

didn't take much pictures. yupp.

halfway through the concert, we decided to go out shopping, so i went home to shower(i stinks after playing captain ball) and get change. then vania decided not to shopping(-.-), so we went to mcdonalds. after that i walk her home. on the way we saw her parents with their friends. her parents' friend drove me home after that. so tired luh.

okay. i shall end here. bye.

2008-04-11T09:53:00.002+08:00

yesterday i was chatting with my cousin, nadia(nut in short).
i was super tired yesterday, especially when i reached home and sit on the sofa.
anyway, nut and i played games in msn, and communicate using our webcam and speaker, and draw many funny pics. -.-
when the webcam was established..

nadia: omg! i can see your eyebag leh.
nadia: how many days have you not been sleeping?
vivian: lols!
vivian: i sleep everyday okay.
nadia: why are you still in your uniform?
vivian: uh, came back from school an hour ago, and wanted to rest longer before i shower you see.
nadia: oh.
nadia: are you tired?
vivian: uh. no.
nadia: but you look tired to me.
vivian: fine.
vivian: i am tired. XD

and this is how she draw me(my eybag i mean).

tsk.
she was like jumping around and screaming or something after drawing, which was so so so funny. and then she did somersault and the webcam lag, so in my screen she looks like she did somersault halfway and stayed in the air. O.O

omg so retarded but fun.
she continued drawing, and while waiting i fell asleep. -.-
woke up around 10pm plus, to see that she had gone offline. LOLS. went to shower and immediately off to bed.

today
i'm so not going to talk about today.

2008-04-07T20:17:00.003+08:00

today.

went to collect the nametags for the sec1s at beach road.

saw jiamin in the school toilet, and ask her if she want to follow me there.

ahahas. she agreed. then i said i would treat her something nice to eat. XD

went there, collected,and as promised. :]

took many pictures of jiamin la. but didn't want to post all, as in because all are super blur. XD

went back to school after that to study, cause i dont want to go home that early yet. went for tuiton after that. reached home, and now i'm blogging.

2008-03-27T22:43:00.003+08:00

we had cross country today.

and once again, we(girl guides) have to serve refreshments to the others on duty(e.g PEC, teachers), also called the 'milo girl'. o.o

which means we do not need to run.

oh dear, missed the running for two years.

ahahas. last night i was begging mummy to drive us there early in the morning. because i really do not know the way, and partly because i wanted to meet mummy, and also partially because do not want to squeeze with the crowd in the bus. XD

when mum finally agreed to it, my bro started to beg erchin to let us lompang him to bedok reservoir. poor erchin. like kena force like that.

took this in the morning when we reach bedok reservoir.
so beautiful isn't it.

i love my duty to serve refreshments. i dont know why, but i really love it and enjoyed it very much as well. it just makes me feel happy after that. ;D

after cross country, tian, liuzhi and i went vivo to look and shop around. went LJS for a meal, then to daiso to buy sweeeeets, and then to the pool, but it's quite saddening to see that some part of the pool is dried up.

last stop to candy empire, then everyone headed home.

it's been a long time since i've go out shopping with liuzhi, so i'm actually quite happy and glad at the same time that we've finally able to go vivo and shop around today.

when's the next time will we be able to go out again?

2008-03-22T22:47:00.004+08:00

and so, i went to huiying's church(city harvest), because she invited me. and i thought i should just go, and know more about god. and her church friends are soooo friendly, i instantly fell in love with each and everyone of them. ;D and they loook so young okay. especially suting. i thought she's like 19-20, but she's 26. :o

i enjoyed the drama, it's so nice and funny. and touching too.

after that i went for salvation, well, without knowing. i mean i know it is, but huiying just ask me to walk to the follow her to the front. she say it's no need to be scared/shy, it's nothing scary or something. and seriously, it took me a quite some time for me to decide okay i swear, i was confused then. but i end up following her to the front.

so there i am, and after that suting asked me if i know that i went for salvation, and what it means. i paused awhile, and said no. -.- so she explained to me, everything that i need to know.

so now, i'm alone in the room, trying to sort my feeling, trying to make things better.

i feel so helpless.

2008-03-20T20:45:00.003+08:00

happy good friday friends.
one special thing about this week is that we had our good news week(what else).
and seriously, i gets moody, confused, annoyed and all, after the good news week(every year).
i gets irritated and frustrated of myself.
i'm a buddhist, but there's this effing problem is that i believe in both religion, which makes me even hard to decide. and i seriously feel that my friends and relatives are pressing me for my answer, they wanted me to decide as soon as possible, when they are telling me to 'take my time, and it's never to late to change my mind'. i need more time.
it's really not easy to decide. it's like, you heard many stories about jesus and everything from pastors and your christian friends, but you really didn't see it for yourself. it's really diff to explain and understand. you didn't experience it. same goes for anyone, it's hard for them to be buddhist if i ask them to be one, explain and tell them many true stories. who will be convinced?
so, why am i talking about all these.

guess i'm thinking too much.

why can't things be simplier? :(
sigh.

2008-03-19T02:20:00.004+08:00

guess what?

happy birthday heather! ;D

she was blindfolded. it's a suprise you see. XD

hees. secretly take a pic without her knowing. ;D

oh YAY, she cut the cake.

raising up their to get their slice of cake.(sihui and heather)

strawberry. i'm on diet you see, so i didn't eat the cake. XD

alright i gtg. i'm not free to post actually, but i managed to, but it's a lil too brief.
oh well.

2008-03-16T01:53:00.002+08:00

hahas. i went to humin's house yesterday.

because i'm lending her my laptop to do her march hols assignment. her com is down. XD

huimin's hair looks brown. *blink blink*

jianfu, huimin's bro, is super cute and funny can.

huimin was busying doing assignment, while i was busy doing nothing. :\

and so, i played with her new camera, sony t70. XD

i was bored.

seee how retarded i am.

CAMWHORE-ING(with huimin)

i saw huimin's glittery nails. and i thought it looks nice.

so trying to kill time, and since it's holiday..

hees. huimin's painting for me. XD

taa-daa.

because it's a saturday, i'm suppose to spend time with my family. mum called me in the evening and ask me to go over to her working place and meet her(bro and sis were there alr).

so i leave my laptop with huimin, and immediately headed to mum's working place.

suppose to go out for dinner when i rreached there, but bro and i were lazy to move(we were tired you see), so sis bought mcdonalds(takeaway) for us. XD

after resting for quite a long time, we decided to play pool. ;D

only mum, bro and i.

bro:

mum:

no pic of me playing, cause i'm the only photographer there. XD

went to huimin's house to collect my laptop back today, that's why i'm here blogging right now. hahas.

i shall end here.

2008-03-13T22:06:00.014+08:00

today.

went for dragon boating course. ohgoodnessla.

i knew it would rain.

and it really did. :\

HMPH.

and i'm suppose to go shopping with huimin. but she last minute come and tell me she cannot go.

anyway. we ended early because of the heavy rain.

went to shower.

and i saw this really really cool sign(NOT).

WATCH YOUR HEAD. -.-

took pictures with heatherther.

uh. i bought that lollipop, i mean, melody pop, for tian. i've never eat the melody pop when i was young before. or maybe i have. oh hahs. i thought it's a new version type of lollipop or something when i saw it at 7eleven. well, at least now i know there's such lollipop, better than dont even know it exist at all.

everyone (except for some seniors) headed to bugis. XD we took neoprints, excluding tian and crystal(awww man).

ah yes, and more pictures with heather with my camera. we were hiding in one of the neoprint machines busy taking pictures, like nobody's business. XD

vivian says HELLO! to the world.

after which, i went home, to take my laptop to vania's house, because her com is down, and she wanted to use my laptop to go online. -.- UGH.

heavy rain somemore. :\

nevermind, for my meimei's sake. ;D

but i'm super bored there cause' she's totally busy watching tv and using com at the same time. and me, sitting there doing nothing. it's totally no life.

here it is.

i feeel so nelected, and this picture explains it all. ):

ahahas, but still, i <3>

meimei is <3!

ahahas. her dad drove me home after that. so here i am, blogging. XD

2008-03-11T19:25:00.005+08:00

went over to mum's place to have a swim. i didn't swim, because i don't feel like it.

then we went to have our brunch.

(that's mum)

my bro gave me that kind of pose for me to take picture of him.

so i copied him. and it looks totally different

oh, and we went to buy ground tea rice, which is pronouced as 'lei cha fan' in chinese, again. ;D

everyone ate that.

EXCEPT FOR MY BRO. lols. XD he ate charsiew rice.

ugh. that liar. still dare to give me that kind of look. HMPH. :\ when we promise to cut down on meat intake.

i'm going to end here. XD

2008-03-09T22:59:00.000+08:00

MEMEME!

i'm so so glad that i like vegetables, really.
i eat all kinds of veggie; don't mind eating bittergourd, and it use to be one of my favourite, and i will eat it EVERYDAY. ;D
and this prove that i'm not choosy. well, not really. XD

this morning, mum went to buy what this's called, tea ground rice? or is it ground tea rice? UGH. to think i would forget.

anyway, it's my FAVOURITE.
it has beeeeen a super long timmmmme since i last ate this, and i really miss eating it sooo much.
even for my bro(who hate veggie), he loves to eat this too la.

and it's all veggie. No meat(except for ikan bilis), ONLY veggie. and not white rice, but brown rice.

i should buy a few packets someday and treat all my goood friends. XD

speaking of which, i've decided to cut down on my meat intake. it's really scary, the way we devour meat just like that, swearing.

after that, mum feels like playing golf, so she insist that i should go and play with her. and just as we reached there, it starts to rain.

despite the rain, the golf club is still crowded luh. full house, can you believe it. we managed to find only a space, and so i let my mum play instead, because i brought her laptop along with me, smart eh? XD

went online while she's playing her golf. and the rain drop keeps on splattering in. and look at the state of the screen.

I CAN SEE NOTHING. but i still use it anyway.

oh hahas. i secretly took this. so it's not really a nice picture of her.

2008-03-09T15:48:00.002+08:00

went to mum's house with sis and bro.
and andd, mum make brocolli salad for us.
omg. it's been a long time since i've ate it.
my fav. ;p

for those who dont know what is brocolli salad. XD

went to vivo and shop around.
and happen to take a picture of bro with a pair of lilo and stitch ear. -.-

the food at the food court is expensive and sucky. so not worth it, really.
went to daiso, to buy sweeeeeeeeets! ;D

after that
wanted to go and take a ride on this, i dont know what it's called.

but the majority of us dont feel like it, so we just drove past . XD

and off we went, to east coast park to cycle. XD
omg, i was like 'is this really east coast park?'.

mmy rented bicycle.

we stopped and rested halfway, cause we wanted to see hot guys, uh, surfing(is it surfing?).

that's sis, chatting way on the phone.

you saw a blue shirt guy in the air?

this's the guy. XD

jump up in the air again.

sis sitting down and resting.

EYEBAG! D:

my bro, trying to ride my bicycle. XD

me and bro.

went to pizza hut for dinnnerrrrr.
sis: come on! dont be shy!
vivian: EY! i'm not prepared luh!

that's sis.

me again. -.-

tsk. look at my bro. trying to act serious.

well, i look.. tired?

and as usual, i'll always pour lots and lots of cheese powder on my slice of pizza, just like this.

you can't blame me, i'm a cheese lover.

before,

and after. :]

hahs. so gay.

camwhore-d on the way home.

i thought i should just upload the one and only ugliest pic.

2008-03-08T13:34:00.008+08:00

**EDITED**

went for the 2days and 1night recruit camp.
and i think i slack alot. did i?
and i failed to set a gooood example to the sec1s.
because i don't know how to.
it kind of makes me remind of us when we are in sec1, and our senior teach us how to pitch up the tent and all during the sec1 camp. and they've set a very good example.
given by my poor memory, i've forgotten how to pitch up a nylon tent, but i still remember how to pitch up a canvas tent. and when the sec1s asked me, i don't know what to say. and it's sooo embarrassing.

AND POW IS SO FUN XD
pictures uploaded. **GRIN**

JEANJEANJEAN. :D

i think she was kinda scared. :o

-s m i l e!- jean! ;D

SHUTINGSHUTINGSHUTING. XD

goodness la, she's so brave and daring enough to do what she want to do(in a good way). so the seniors surround her and sort of acting fierce and trying to make her scared, but it didn't work. and you can still see her cheerful smile, and hear her sweet and calm voice. :] and i'm proud of it, cause' she's in my patrol. :D she rocks, really. :)

after that, i went to play basketball with some seniors and juniors, then shower.
as we walk to back to the classroom, to take our phones and camera to the canteen, and we started camwhore-ing. not really us, mostly were crystal. XD

got caught by teacher. :x

so we went back to the classroom to play with the projector. XD

NEXT DAY. we did our laundress badge test(did i spell/name it correctly?).

this is where we hang dry our clothes. XD

and this is where i hanged myself.

LOLS. just joking. -.-

the sec1 bb boys were having their camp too. XD and i saw my brother. and i have no face to tell everyone that his my bro, though i did. XD just look at the way he eat. goodness, i mean, GOODNESS. he should change. he looks like a hungry ghost, just like how he eat at home. is like, he don't even bother to care that much. friends laugh at me okayy, JORDANPOH. i felt like slapping him at that very moment.
HMPH.
anyway he got terrible scolding from my mum when he's back from camp, because i told my mum about it. :x seriously, and it's all for his own goood. what if his girlfriend breaks up with him when she saw how my bro eat? LOLS.

i'm so tired. *yawnn*

2008-03-06T20:29:00.002+08:00

i got my haircut LAST SUNDAYY.
and
yes i got my haircut. :]
not much difference though.

uh-uh. not this. XD

LOLS. this.

i'm not really that satisfied with my new haircut. but at least i got a haircut luh.

i've been slacking these few days, and i wonder why.

2008-03-05T23:34:00.000+08:00

yesterday.

totally bored. sis, her bf, bro and i went to mum's workplace and wait for mum to knock off, which she will only knock off at 2am plus? -.-

it's a gooood thing that i've brought my laptop along, and luckily i have a portable modem.

and also a handphone with 24games, so that i can kill time.

really.

i'm half-dead, sitting on the sofa, using com and playing the games in my phone at the same time, i was trying to keep myself busy.

couldn't help it. the more i play, the more tired i am. totally dead(above pic).

then i wake up after few minutes. decided to keep myself awake, i took pictures with bro. ;D

and we both look tired.

(saw my sis's bf feet? ahaas. he's fast asleep.)

random.

so tired, slept in the car on the way home. and when i get out of car when my mum fetched us home, the moon is super uber bright when we were walking from the carpark to the lift.

my eyes hurt for a moment.

i'm so bored nowadays, i get to think of you every second.

2008-02-29T00:29:00.001+08:00

ohcool. today is 29 feb. once in every four year. i want to watch 'The Leap Years'.

2008-02-28T19:47:00.006+08:00

im so glad tmr is friday, really. this week, for some reason, has been draining and trying. for the 2nd time this month, i overslept.
i detest the panic that follows everytime i wake up from oversleeping. not a feeling, really.

:(
so tired.

alright, we went to this 'Career & Exhibition Fair'. was so interested in the Engineer and Business & Management one. :] hahas.

wasn't in good mood. i was): so i pulled hsin yu along with me to ms to buy some expensive and fattening foooood after that. they are 'real' food, that will really makes you grow sideways. so now you know. that's the way how i'll vent my anger/ make me feel better. :] and so, i feeel much more better now. thanks hsin yu. :] bought a 6marshallow choc for $5(not so ex though) and ice cream(cone) for $4.30. the way i spend, ohman i think i should try to control and change this habit. spending of my money today wasn't that bad, there's way more scarier than this i promise. i could spend $50-$100 on something but not using it. hsin yu tried to stop me many many times, but i'm not listening to her.

so on our way home, she tried to cheer me up. and we started going a little crazy and lame, just a little. and that makes me (:

oh and we gossip a little here and there in the train, and we are like so aunty i must say, because we act like one too. hahas.

i don't know why, but i have not been doing homework for the past few days till yesterday, and i tried to finish all my overdue homework. and i feeel soo tired.

maybe that's why despite binging on marshmallows, sweets, chocolate and ice cream when i'm upset, my weight still falls. but my appetite's also been small for the past few days, and i feel like vommitting after every meal, which causes me not to give my full attention during lessons. at first i thought i would have anorexia, but i guess i just shouldn't think too much. maybe i'm stress, just stress.

listening to slow songs now, trying to stay calm and relax.

i think im stressed.
but i promise i shall not go bonkers on anyone.

2008-02-27T11:31:00.001+08:00

alright. i'm finally back to post. :]
and i realise i should update more often.
why? i don't know.
because people like huimin, annabel!, alfie, jiamin and CYNTHIA! told me to do so. ha.
i feeel so so soooooo bad, for not replying ALLL THE TAGGGGG. opps.

nothing much happened today.
so i shall end here. i promise i'll blog again tmr friends!

and you know i love to -s m i l e!- :]

2008-02-11T21:14:00.007+08:00

"In Loving Memory Of Ah Meng"

And of course, i went to the zoo to visit AhMeng and attend the funeral, with tian.

Outside the zoo.

Ah Meng's funeral.

you can see that they are taking pictures of AhMeng in the coffin.

And this is the zookeeper who took care of AhMeng for many years.

this is where AhMeng was buried.

And nearby ther's this statue of AhMeng, and some flowers and letters are placed.

one of the letter goes like this:

'AhMeng is my favourite animal in the zoo.

But i do like the White Tiger too!

Then i love the playground,

and then i like the lion sound.

But then again i love AhMeng.'

it's definitely written by a kid.

well, at first i thought it sounds a lil funny and weird, but for a second thought, this is goood enough for a lil kid, at least he/she took the initiative to write this letter.

ah yes, and some newspaper reporter(i guess) interviewed tiantian!

so funny luh. XD

in the toilet. ._.

as you can see, i'm wearing black, it's more appropriate to attend a funeral with black shirt isn't it?

oh yes, believe it or not, we went to watch the animal show, those kind that's for lil kid to watch. XD

you saw a penguin sitting alone, with the back facing the front?

poor penguin, it must be lonely. :\

took pictures with green elephant. XD

green horse(horse right?). o.o

green giraffes. ;D

now, this is the real horse, i mean, pony. XD

it says, 'no feeding'.

monkey see, monkey do. XD

trying to act as monkey. i know this is ridiculous and totally retarded. but still. :)

NG.

much better. :D

trying to pass off as an AhLian/AhBeng. XD

oh, and we saw rhino mating. i took many pictures of it, and even video cam it, but i'm not suppose to post it on my blog, because my dear friends told me not to. they say it's considered porn. :o

LOLS. so random.

random pics.

not random pic. -.-

credit to tiantian who took it.

i ask her to take the picture of the dragonfly for me, because i'm too afraid to go near them.

i took this pic, and i even zoomed in before taking this pic la. why is it still so far. tsk.

sealions!

took pic with sealions but i did not have the pictures with me.

well, i feel really sad that AhMeng had passed away. but it's been a long time since i go to zoo yes?

at least i've had a great time with tian, and it's all worth it. :]

-s m i l e!- :)

2008-02-09T19:06:00.001+08:00

CHINESE NEW YEAR.

AND ON THE...
NEW YEAR EVE, 6february2008

well, i didn't know we are not allow to wear black colour shirt for new year. -.-"

when my dad saw me in my black tube dress when i enter to my uncle's house for steamboat(he went there earlier), he drove me back home to change to another set of new year clothes. -.-

and as usual, i went with my cousin and her family for some prayers that we do every year. my dad drove me there after we had our steamboat. but that day, it's a little different, in a sense that my cousin actually went to ask one of the elders there a question, and that's what i've been wanting to know too, the doubts i've been keeping for so long and yet not solved. okay anyway, my cousin told the elderly that she had questions to ask.hah. for a moment, i knew the elderly wasnt expecting it. but she took her questions, and explained to her as well as she could. it was a long talk. mostly with her talking, and my cousin, and of course me by the side pretending to daydream, listening. i learnt a lot. and i left that day (1am odd) with a mix of emotions. i was guilty..i was more resolved..

FIRST DAY OF NEW YEAR, 7febraury2008

nadia.

sofia.

viviann. XD

took many pics with cousin NUT. and a little with LA SOF. (is you could get what i mean, it's their nick you see. XD) we were on our way to their ahgong's house to 'bai nian'. yeah, you didnt heard me wrongly, it's their ah gong.

not that i didnt visit my own ahgong, i stay with my grandparents you see. so i went with them, as usual.

that's cousin nut.

and that's me. :)

my new heels, her new flats.

and at ahgong's(their) house..

after which we went to watch CJ7 together. omg that CJ7 is super uber cute alright!. the show is so so funny, and i laugh throughout, exept the ending part it's so touching(to me) and i started crying.

went to cousin nut and la sof's house to have dinner. played table soccer. and then played nintendo wii. oh yes, i miss playing nintendo wii with them. but just after a while, another 2 cousins of mine ran in and snatch the remote from us. -.- ohman. but they are some funny lil kids. and they are cute and chubby. XD

afraid that that 2 rough lil boys will spoil the remote, my fav. cousin's(sharon) bf carry one of the boy out of the tv room. XD

here they are. sharon(my cousin) and her bf, raymond.

cousin sharon playing nintendo wii.

oh, did i forget to tell you that this is the latest way of wearing shades and specs together at the same time? ._.

SECOND DAY OF NEW YEAR, 8february2008

pratically, we(my cousin's family and i) just stayed at home for the whole day, because uncles and aunties came and have steamboat with us. and we, the children, received many many hongbaos of course. XD but it's really boring to stay at home for the whole day. i can feel us rotting. and around evening time i went home by bus. :\

i hope the next chinese new year would be a better one. :]

2008-01-24T23:34:00.000+08:00

LOLS. tiantian's back last night. and so is crystal. and mohini, and heather. XD
went to bugis last night till 10pm plus, bought lots of clothes again, and waiting for tian's reply. sms-ed her 4times. i was wondering if she brought her phone to newzealand. then after i reach home for quite awhile, she sms-ed me. -.- LOLS.
nevermind. i did call crystal's phone too. i forgot that her mum's using her sim card. :\
ah.
let's talk about the sec3 camp.
i'm not going to write much.
i didn't try all the height element. i really wanted to try. but i just don't know why i dare not, and i'm scared. i don't even know why i'm scared, and what i scared of.
and trekking was tiring, and fun at the same time. saw monkeys! -.-
and disecting of frogs ang eels are so EEW! and what the heck is an eel doing in a nylon tent's bag? the gb girls' need to sleep in the tent in order to get their expedition badge(i think), yeah, and gaby, some other people and i help them to build their tent. then i went to take another bag, and took out all the stuffs in the tent bag. damn it, and i pull an eel out. i was frigging frighten and disgusted by the eel at the same time okay. and all my hair stood up luh. at that time, who wouldn't cry? my hand is so slimy, because it's cover with the slimy substances of that eel. DAMN.
during the camp, i really get to know more classmates better, and i love our class cheer! XD
simple and funny luh.
HUAT AR(x2), FAITH3-3,
HUAT AR(x2), VIC-TOR-RRRRY,
HUAT AR(x2), FAITH3-3,
HUAT AR(x2), COME FIGHT ME!
HUAT AR!

fun!

okay. today.
so tiring after drill, ends at 6-6.15pm.
today's drill quite lousy. mdms are not satisfied with our drill.
and i have tons of hw today. ohman.
got to go and do my hw now. :\

P.S i'm broke luh. bought 2dress($56.45), 4bottoms($126.45), 5tops($100++), 1shoes($29.95++), 1bag($69.90), 1wallet($29). total=$429.85++

whatthe.my mum sponsor me $200. $229.85 ++ is my own money leh. didn't know i spend so much. regret buying that 40bucks dress. :\

2008-01-09T11:00:00.000+08:00

haiyo. they went to new zealand. :(
leave me alone here.

after sending them off, we went to have dinner with KC guides at popeye!. lols.
then gaby and i went home with filzah and annabelle. they are so funny luh! XD

hahas. i just love being with them soooo much! they are fun to be with.

hmm, so tian, mohini, crystal and heather's gonna be back at 23jan.

anyway, i've been having the urge to eat brocolli salad. it rocks! ;D

it doesn't look appetising here. :x

2008-01-05T19:59:00.000+08:00

today.
went to dylan's birthday party.
posting some lame pictures. all taken by TIANN``!

tian's PSP SLIM LUH!

greeeeeeeeeeeen with envyyyyyyy! nvm! i'm getting it soooon ANYWAY! hmph! ;D

2008-01-01T23:48:00.000+08:00

hello. HAPPY NEW YEAR!
er.
went to genting two days ago.
when i went to my cousin's house the day before to stay overnight, they return something to me, and it's MINE! -.- gameboy colour.
about 7years later, they finally return it back to me.
and it's still working. so cool luh!

some pictures when we reach genting. XD

well, it's not a cabinet. it's a door for the toilet. so weird.

my favourite food/dessert there. XD i don't know what it's called.

oh. and on the way back. we were damn damn crazy and lame. -.-

hmph. i'm too tired you see. so i sort of shorten my post.

2007-12-29T21:40:00.000+08:00

HELLLOO! went out with tiannnnnn to DXO. andd we are proud of it. XD i like the third band.
and yingtian kept taking pictures of a cute guy. naughtynaughtynaughty. but it's so coool!

then we went to vivo shopshopshop! bought something for myself at topshop.

the back is so cool. XD

i went to edit, the black colour is actually my back.

went to try some more clothes, but didn't buy.

bubyee for now!

P.S DXO is a club.
P.S.S you can go to http://www.crimsoncue.blogspot.com/ for more info about today, if i have not edit today's post. XDXD

2007-12-28T22:44:00.000+08:00

HELLO. today i was busy packing my room for the whole day luh. from morning till now.
it's sososo tiring. :(
hahas. anyway, while packing, my hand started to sweat.
though it's normal(for me), but today one was quite serious.
it's like dripping luh.

it's so wet that when i wipe it on my shirt, it looks like i have just wipe on my shirt after washing my hand.

andand, i got my new beds delivered here today. that's the reason why i need to tify my room.

it's sooooooo much neater lor.

people like gaby, tiann, jiamin and wanxin know how messy my room is.

next time you're free to visit me again, to see how neat it is now. XD

the new bed delivered! er, the pillow and bolsters are my own one.

really, it's soooooooo tiring,

2007-12-27T01:32:00.000+08:00

RAH. i'm here to blogblogblog again.
the reason is simply because i've got nothing better to do.
well, i have better than blogging to do actually.
packing my books and everything on my room. :\
my room's a disaster.
i throw all my shirts and shorts and you-know-what everywhere!
some of my shirts and shorts are in the living room too.
wow, i'm honest.
no picture for this okay, or i dare not face you guys anymore.
went to buy booooks yesterday.
and i went out with sis and bro to popular at tampines malllll.
there's pasar malam(night market) there.
saw many different kind of food i have never ever seen before.
and surprsingly, the food we bought, taste, good!
mmmm.
we bought,
mango sticky rice(faved!),

and,
i don't know what's this called.

today, went to collect skinnies at paya lebar.
and then i stayed at home for the whole day.
and what else can i do. pack my stuffs luh.
luckily sis help me. ;D
now it's half done.
living room is neat and tidy now.
but not my room.
i'm going to cut it short. because i don't feel like blogging anymore.
suppose to go genting with cousins on friday. but i can't make it. :(
sorry sofia, and nadia.
i have something on for both friday and saturday.
because i have tuition on friday and i cannot change it, and ah tio's bringing something to my house and i have to stay at home.

many things' been coming at the wrong time for this hols.
and i've been rather hot temper and irritating too.

and in the end, i still have to apologise, no matter whose fault it is.

P.S pictures will be upload later.

2007-12-26T05:03:00.000+08:00

HEYHEY.

HAPPY BOXING DAY!

2007-12-26T03:22:00.000+08:00

25dec
hello friends.
went out with vania today.
hmmmm.
and with her cousin too, to vivo!
;D
buy more more presentsssssss!!
heehees.
i'm happy:] and sadd:[.
:l
happy cause i got to buypresents for more friendssssss, and sad cause i have totally no money with me right now. HMPH.
all the presents cost me $100plusplus luh.
so cool luhh. :]
but i will still have NONONO regret spending my moneyyyyyy on these christmas presents.
because,
it's the season of, erm, GIVING!;D
HAHAHAS.
so now i have no money to watch movie and shopshopshop!
hmmmm. i think it's alright. XD

HAHAS!
MERRY CHRISTMASSSSS! LOLS.

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS MY
TWO FRONT TEETH, TWO FRONT TEETH,
TWO FRONT TEETH.

2007-12-24T21:38:00.000+08:00

HELLOOOO.
went out with jiaminnn todayyyyyyy to watch movie!!
watched 'The Golden Compass'.
hahas! enjoyed watching it with jiaaaaaaminnnnnnnnn.
so fun.
we were pratically screaming(sort of) and taking whatever we could grab to cover our eyes luh.
because some parts of the movie really scare us. -.-
HA.. HA!
i didn't know watching movie is her is soooooooo funnn.
LOLS!

went to buy more christmas presentssss!
mymymymy! my moneyyyy.

2007-12-24T12:04:00.000+08:00

OHMYGOSH!
OHMYGOSH!!
HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE! ;D
-.-

ANYWAY. I WILL BLOG AGAIN LATER.
:]

-s m i l e!-

2007-12-23T23:49:00.000+08:00

HellO! lols.

slept at 7am and woke up at 3pm plus. hmmm.

and i went online till 7pm plus and vania's parents fetch me to their church for their candlelight service. in the end when we reach there vania say she want to have her dinner, so her parent pass her money and we went to hans at park mall for dinner. then we went watson to look around. then to plaza sing's watson to look around again. then to carrefour to buy hooch.

FOOD WE EAT AT HANS.

HAHAHAS. VANIA CAN'T WAIT TO EAT.
HAHAHAS!yes!i'm like veryvery hungry!-->vania here!
she must be very hungryyyyy

taken in the toilet @ plaza sing.

vania drank hooch. i bought that for her. Thank-yous JIEJIE!-->vaniahere!
didn't feel like drinking. feel like vomitting when i saw it.

and she drink so fast luh! ohmygoshohmygoshohmygosh.
Wakakakakas!where gort lorrs!hahaas!-->vaniahere!
and after that she go crazy.
that's her. pillar-dancing there. hugging the pillar.

and when we reach the church at 10pm, the service ended. -.-
so we just went there to take candles.

then i went to have supper with them, but for vania's parents, i guess it's their dinner.
then went home! :]

actually i've been looking at those pictures of mummy i've taken. and i went to compare with those pictures of her short hair before she went for her hair extension.

well, these are the pictures before she went for her hair extension thingy.
HMMM.

i don't know which one looks nicer on her actually. hmph.

hmmm.

COMPARE!

RAH.

ANYWAY,
i have a quiz.

List the top 5 presents you wish for:
-PSP Slim
-Sony MP3 Player, the NWZ-S610F
-Sony Camera T2
-Nintendo Wii
-that white laptop(forgot what's that brand)

1. the person who tag you is: wanxin!, jiamin, youminnnnn and natalie.
2. you relationship with them is : WANXIN- good friend!, JIAMIN- close friend!, YOUMINNNNN- girlguide friend! and NATALIE- my girl guide friend! and crazier-than-vivian friend!
3.your five impression of them is: WANXIN- she ar? easy luh. cute, small, funny, lame, friendly. JIAMIN- funny, crazy, dramatic(XD), friendly, talkative. YOUMINNNNNN- funny, crazy, talkative, friendly!, lame.NATALIE- SUPER CRAZY, siao, funny-funny-lame-lame, cute in another way, retard in a good way. XDXDXD
4. the most memorable thing they has done for you is: WANXIN- ohmygosh! alot! i owe her a bigbigbig favour. JIAMIN- lending me the paintbrushes! ;D YOUMINNNN- sending me the pictures after begging her for soooo long. >.< NATALIE- hmm. wait, let me think.
5. the most memorable word(s) they said: WANXIN: 'HALO?' :p JIAMIN:'SORRY SORRY SORRY!' YOUMINNNN-she ar? hmm. "HAHAHAHAHAHAS!" NATALIE-"VIVIANNNNN!"
6. If she become your lover, you will: I THEN DON'T WANT LUH. WHO'S THE PERVERT WHO CREATE THIS QUIZ?!
7. If she ever become your lover, you will: next!
8. If she become your enemy, the reason will be: WANXIN- i don't know lehh. JIAMIN- she have stolen my boyfriend! XD YOUMINNNNNN- hmmm. quarrel? NATALIEE- argue, i guess.
9. Most desired thing you want to do for them: WANXIN: eh. bring her go salon. :D JIAMIN: go watch movie together. XD YOUMINNNN- finish this quiz! NATALIEE- still early, not the time yet.
10. Your overall impression of them: WANXIN- cute. JIAMIN- dramatic! YOUMINNNN- funny! NATALIE- CRAZY. ;D

Pass this to 10people you wish to know how they feel about you:
1. Anthony
2. gabrielle
3. heather
4. huimin
5. huiqing
6. jean
7. liuzhi
8. wanxin
9. TIANN``! :D
10. natalie

1. Who is 6 having a relationship with?- what a good question.
2. Is 9 a male or a female?- SHE's a FEMALE (banana)!
3. If 7 & 10 together, will it be a good thing? - it will be a disaster.
4. What is 2 studying about? - she's studying about i-don't-know-actually.
5. When was the last time you have you had a chat with 3?- two dayssss agoooo.
6. What kind of music band does 8 like?- err. she like many different types.
7. Does 1 have any siblings?- yepp.
8. Would you woo 3?- HAHAHAS. maybe i will, IF I'M A GUY. -.-
9. How about 7?- same luh. both equally good. -.-
10. Is 4 single?- yepp.
11. What is the surname of 5?- Huo.
12. What is the name of 1o?- NAAA-TAAA-LIIIIIIEEEE.
13. What is the hobby of 4?- shopping!
14. Does 5 & 9 get along well?- mmmm. yeah.
15. Where is 2 studying at?- you don't know? i tell you then. Geylang Methodist School(Secondary).
16. Where is 9 staying at now?- she's staying at aljunied crescent NOW.
17. Are 5 & 1 best friends?- no they are not.
18. Does 7 likes 2?- yes, as a friend.
19. Does 1 have any pet at home? - i don't think sooooo.

i was told by youminnn to do this quiz.
lols.
i'm done with the quiz. finallyyyyyyy.